énouement (cancelled)

Chapter 3

~Edd's POV~

We were given our seating places which were the exact same as last year. In art, Matt and Tom were on my table but Tord wasn't, which was good. My 2 greatest friends as of now. To be honest, my only 2 friends; I'm not too sure about Tord. I'm still not forgiving him. He's not the nicest person around.
Our teacher made us draw fish by copying them out. The boy sat next to me was terrible and had no idea on how to draw a line. I heard Matt call him Callum and I remember him. Weird... Matt was actually fine at art as well as Tom. They had decent skill with a pencil and paper. I stayed silent, not wanting to speak to anyone. I was probably one of the best at art on my table. I was finished second because Callum had said he was but really wasn't. The eye was crooked and the form was incorrect. Eh, not everyone is picasso. I noticed again that Tord kept looking at me from afar and smiling whenever I caught his eye. He desperately wants to be my friend. I don't know if I should let him. I'm so confused.
The lesson passed by quickly and lunch began. I made my way past all my classmates and towards Matt. Smiling, I tapped his shoulder. He seemed to brighten up straight away. We started off a conversation and Emmy seemed to butt in like she'd always do. That pissed me off a lot when she did that. She was so cocky and thought she was great. I only wanted to speak to Matt. We did speak about musicals so Emmy drifted off to other people, like the popular kids. She was the only person capable of mixing between loser and popular. I genuinely hated her. Only Matt was the bright light in my old friend group.
Lunch was the same as ever, except I talked to Matt and only Matt. I lied and said I didn't feel comfortable near people I didn't seem to like. He understood and we just messed around all lunch. I didn't eat but Matt did while we talked. Later, Tom came over and we all hit it off really well. We were acting like we werr great friends for years. Only today had I met these people as who I wanted to be and I finally realised how great it was. Tom seemed less angry and was being more positive. Matt was a lot more confident around Tom because it was a normal conversation they were having. Not one about love life or anything soppy. It felt right, in a way. But, it also felt wrong. It was only our first day back and I already wanted to say I'm transgender. I wanted to say who I was. I couldn't but it couldn't be a secret forever. Someone would find me taking testosterone or maybe they'd see me with my binder on. I was very self concious about this but I could pull through. Probably.

I said goodbye and let Tom and Matt speak while I needed to use the toilet. Strangely enough, I hadn't even drank anything today. My body was always weird to me. I had to use the disabled toilet because the school said it may be uncomfortable if I used the male toilet when I still had a... female's genitals. When I'd finished doing my business, I was greeted by Tord again. He smirked and casually followed me on the way out of the corridor. It was unnerving to me so I asked what was up. He laughed and grinned at me. "Get the bus with me after school. Matt and Tom don't live anywhere near you. I know they live on the other side of the school. We get off at the same stop and live on the same road. You can trust me." Tord held out his hand with a piece of paper on it. I read it and it had his address on it. "Fine." I snatched the paper from his hand and shoved it in my pocket, "I'll greet you after our last lesson. Don't pull any tricks on me, or else I won't trust you ever."
"Seems like little Edd Gold already has a grudge? Why? What made you think that? Was it Tom?" He teased.
"Shut up!" I scowled while my cheeks heated up.
"Now you're blushing. How cute." He left me speechless. I decided to walk away and go to Maths, which I realised I had with him. Suddenly, I stopped in my tracks and turned back to Tord. "Look, I sound really pathetic and stuff, but could you lead me to my maths classroom? I'm in room 10..."
"Of course, anything for the precious new kid who doesn't know anything," He jeered back at me.
"Shut the f- hell up." I pouted and crossed my arms.
"And it seems the new kid has the inability to swear." He ruffled me hair making it messy. I smoothed it out again. God, did I hate him. But then again, he's saying these with sarcasm and it really does sound like something Frankie would say. Setting our differences aside, Tord could be charming. And, he definitely turned out to be.
Tord grabbed my wrist tight so not to lose me and led me to our maths room. He sat on our previous desk that we had last year and asked me a simple question, "How come Titty hasn't fucking started drooling over you yet?" I remembered Titty -- or as his actual name which was Ty. He had a strange obsession with transgenders. I thought back to when we once spoke and he said he was gay and would definitely date a female to male transgender. I understand Tord now. "Wait you know my secret?" I whisper-shouted.
"I saw you once go in your car with your parents and you came back as a boy a couple of days later. I live on your damn street," Tord confessed quietly. I felt stupid as to now figure this out. "Please don't tell anyone at all. I beg of you." Ty then looked at me with his evil eyes and smiled creepily. He heard everything. Now, I'm so fucking scared. I thought me and Tord were the only people who came to this class early but I mustn't have heard anyone come in. We all knew Ty was a sociopath and he was going to try to take a bite out of me.
The emotionless teacher we had seated me and Tord next to each other only because we seemed to be friends. I really didn't mind because it was better than being sat next to anyone else. To be honest, I felt quite alone because Tom nor Matt was in my maths classes. Emmy was, but I hated her. Anyway, maths had swept by because of how boring the lesson was. Tord was there to keep me company but all he did was tease me silently. I always turned a little redder everytime he mocked me. I was just embarrassed and he took the hint but carried on. By the end of the lesson I looked like a tomato and walked swiftly to my next class: literature. I already knew where it was due to going in there to do a small test to see what my changes were when I became transgender.
Matt said hi to me at the door just before we went in. The lesson wasn't too interesting. Just some overlook on what we're gonna do over the year. I instinctively tried to leave school as fast as possible and forgot about the agreement between me and Tord. I tried desperately to get home A.S.A.P so I went down 'dog shit alley'. It was a disgusting place but it was the quickest way to the bus stop.
I heard footsteps behind me when I was halfway through which was kinda normal but I looked back anyway. The person there started to run towards me which made me panic and just freeze. They pinned me against a wall and smiled evilly. They intertwined their fingers with mine and spoke, "Edd, don't be scared. I'm not going to hurt you, unless you want me to~" I gulped and shuddered a little. They then placed their lips onto mine and pulled back after a second. I cried. "Shh... Don't cry. I'll make you happy." They licked his lips. My only instinct was to whimper in fear and let them do what they wanted to let me alone. They started to unbutton my shirt but very slowly. They did about 3 buttons and started to plant kisses on my neck. I kept on crying, not knowing what to do.

Help, please. Anyone. Fucking anyone. I'm so scared. It's only my first day and I'm being sexually harassed. I don't know what to do.

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