SELF LOVE

005

( WARNING!! VIVID DISCRIPTIONS OF SEXUAL ASSAULT!! )

10/31/09
11:50pm

i feel disgusted.

this was a fucking stupid idea.

i can't believe i fell for this bullshit.

i had a feeling it would be this way, god jimin why are you such an idiot.

why would these kids want you there anyway, you're no fun.

when i arrived they all just... stared at me.

and then they all dragged me inside the living room.

they wanted to play a game.

specifically, spin the bottle.

i didn't want to do it, but they pressured me.

so when the time came and they spun the bottle, it of course, landed on me.

the guy that spun it just looked at me.

and then he smiled.

it looked sickening, terrifying.

the others around the bottles pointed to the closet.

i almost threw up.

i sat there, unmoving, until they pushed me inside along with the boy.

i couldn't see, couldnt breath, and couldn't hear what was going on outside.

the it happened.

he started to touch me.

he ran his hands up my legs, arms, and neck.

i was trembling, i tried to kick, and scream, but he was far stronger than me, and his hand was over my mouth.

the other went down to touch my bottom, thats when tears started to fall.

before he could continue further they opened the door.

i ran out as fast as my feet would let me.

i heard shouts behind me, things such as 'pussy boy' and 'coward'.

i ran faster.

i had no idea where i am at the moment, i found a gas station and hid inside the bathroom.

i wanna go home.

i wanna sleep.

i wanna disappear.