"When you truly love someone, they say you have to set him free, if he comes back, then you are really meant for each other; but if he doesn't, are you willing to let him go or are you going to fight for love?"
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"Move on Lyka, he doesn't love you anymore!" Eric kept on telling me this..
"No, I can't, how could I forget him, he gave me so much to remember Eric, it is our 2nd year anniversary today, if we are still together..." I'm crying... I'm hurting...
"Lyka, look around you, there are so many guys here who love you, they are dying just to get a date from you, why are you holding back, he is no longer yours... move on!"... by this minute, Eric holds my chin, he gets his hankie and wipes my tears...
"Oh Eric", I hugged him, I kept on crying... " I still love Neo... help me have him back... help me.." I begged Eric, now I am already in his arms, my head in his chest, crying so deeply... I am hurting..
"Tahan na, stop crying... I can't see you like this, mas nasasaktan akong makita kang ganyan..ssshhh..." sabi n'ya sabay hagod sa likod ko... but instead, lalo akong naiiyak, naalaala ko iyung mga araw na kami pa ni Neo...
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I was 18 years old then, when Neo started courting me, it was love at first sight for him, he told me... but for me, he was just an ordinary handsome guy in the campus... That time, I am madly inlove with Eric... yes.. with Eric, but Eric is too inlove with Kathleen, bakit ganun ang love, kung sinong mahal mo, s'yang ayaw sa yo at kung sino namang ayaw mo, s'yang pursigido para makuha ka?... I am so decided to get Eric by hook or by crook! So I planned everything, I thought of using Neo to get Eric's attention but I was not successful... Eric and Kathleen loves each other so much, di naging effective ang ginawa ko, halos na-try ko ng lahat... but I failed...
"Just let me love you Lyka, I'll do everything to make you happy, all I need is one great chance, please" Neo's pledging his love for me... naawa na rin ako sa kanya kasi mabait sya, actually he's almost perfect, he got the looks, he is intelligent and magaling makisama... after 6 months of courtship, I said yes to him... It was July 6, 2010 - we are officially on! Even though I don't love him, I did give him a chance...
"Yes Neo, but please don't expect too much from me, no demands, no nothing!", I bluntly said to him, maybe I don't have to explain myself further because he knows how crazy I am for Eric, he even knew I am just going to use him, but nevertheless, he allowed me to do everything I wished him to do, all my orders, all my craziness! Wala s'yang pakialam kahit pinagmumukha ko na s'yang tanga, maagaw ko lang si Eric kay Kathleen..
After six months, he kept on pursuing his love for me, he gave me flowers everyday, he tried to call me at night before he sleeps, he drops by at my house every morning just to pick me up so we can be together on our way to school.. he is so thoughtful.. he never forgets our monthsary, every month, he gave me a gift - stuffed toys, necklace, bracelet, perfumes... lagi rin nya akong inililibre tuwing lunch, well-off naman family n'ya, di problema sa kanya ang pera... but despite all of this, di ko pa rin s'ya minahal.. sa sobrang pagmamahal ko kay Eric, naging bulag ako sa lahat ng magagandang bagay na ipinakikita n'ya sa akin...
On our first year anniversary, we double date with Eric and Kathleen, noong una, Neo is so hesitant to have this double date for our very first anniversary, sabi nya, dapat kaming dalwa lang, but since mapilit ako, wala na syang nagawa pa kungdi pagbigyan ako... I was so happy to be with Eric kahit di ako ang ka-date n'ya... On our dinner together, I put something on Kathleen's drink as well as on Eric's drink, pampatulog lang... so that Neo will send Kathleen home since family friend ni Neo si Kathleen and since bestfriend ko si Eric, I will send him home... Yes, everything happened as planned... Nasolo ko na rin si Eric, at that time, ang plano ko lang ay palabasin na may nangyari sa amin ni Eric so he would marry me... nagset ako ng video camera, I took some shots na parang hinahalikan ako ni Eric, I even took some pictures na magkatabi kami sa bed... that's how desperate I am to get Eric...
