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April 5th, 2018, Thursday
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It's cold...
Is it okay if I die? No one would really care, would they?
No. They won't. They won't care. Even when I die, they won't care. I'm just a nothing but a mere tool for them.
But that doesn't mean I won't be happy right? They could use me as a tool and I will be fine. Even if it is harsh to both physically and mentally. I would be fine. Fine as ever.
You just don't know when to stop, do you? She asks tiredly.
Of course, I do. There's a limit to what I do. Not like I don't know when or how to stop. Jennifer, my tired, exhausted and broken wolf, lie on her stomach, barely lifting her self up. We barely don't have enough energies to move around that is.
I sigh. My body is still weak from the last beating I earned a few hours ago and from starvation. The beaten from the last few hours by Alpha Jike two warriors was because I had bumped into a famous Alpha that was known
around the world. I wasn't looking where I was going. I had my head down the whole time so my gaze was on the plain-oh-interesting wooden floor and that's when I bumped into him. The starvation? I wasn't allowed to eat. Only once a week I was able to eat but the only problem is that the bread was small like the size of your foot, there was small cup of water and a mini bowl of warm porridge. It wasn't enough to fill my stomach. And it was the same old daily food like always. I would love to complain but I know better not to.
I sigh again. The feeling in my stomach wouldn't go away. It has been bothering me for a while. The longing of love, and the yearning to go out of the room. I wasn't sure what I was yearning for but I know I was yearning for something. Possibly be someone too. I wasn't sure is what I know. Except Jennifer might know a thing. She been purring and shouting mate repeatedly. It sure does get annoying once a while but there's nothing I could do until she stops shouting mate. Plus the faint delicious smell of chocolate late wasn't helping either.
When will this be over?
Why am I the only one being a tool?
What did I do to make this happen? I know I didn't do anything.
Someone...anyone...please...help me...
I pulled my knees toward me and wrapped my arms around them. I gladly buried my face between my breast and knees. My forehead directly on top of my knees. Tightly squeezing my hold, my tears betrayed me and slowly by slowly they ran down my cheek. I suddenly feel hopeless. I was pathetic, that is. Pathetic, weak and useless. Just like the other pack member says. I know I shouldn't believe them but I was losing faith and hope and it was getting on to me. It's funny how I still have faith and hope 'till today even after 13 years long.
My heartache when I thought of mate. A mate that loves, cares, and protect you. A mate that would be by your side forever 'till death. But...there could be cruel mates too. Cruel enough to reject, and abused their love. There could be betrayals and lies. I had seen them with my very own eyes. It wasn't good I tell you that. Some went crazy, very crazy to enough to turn into rogues and be killed off by others. Rogues have this awful smell of rotten eggs. You will know if you have countered with rogues.
"Yes, of course. This room is assigned to omega"
I immediately tense right away when I recognize the voice. The voice itself was clear enough to know who. And I gritted my teeth at the name Omega. Since I didn't have any specific name which I do, Omega became my name. Elizabeth was the name and Jessica was a nickname then soon Omega became my second nickname.
The door creaks open, and Alpha Jike enters the room. Two other males behind Alpha Jike soon enter the room too after Jike fully stood in the middle of the room.
My breath hitch when the chocolate mocha latte I had smell became stronger. The smell was stronger in here. I didn't look up, but I know one of the unknown males was my mate. Jennifer grew energize, and happy, shouting mate repeatedly all over again. The feeling of yearning towards something became strong too which I instantly knew that I was yearning for my mate. Even I haven't known him, I knew I was yearning for him badly.
"Omega. Get over here." Alpha Jike barked. Hearing the edge of his tone, he was indeed angry. I lift my head but not fully up that I was actually looking at them and got up wincing. The pain shot through my whole body, my head throbbing in pain. I blinked couple of time to get a better vision but couldn't so I just made my way over towards Alpha Jike. Wobbling and the lack of good vision, I nearly stumble against my feet. The pain grew every time I take a step.
Once in front of Alpha Jike, I begin to lower my head. A slight growl came from my right but I ignored it and stiffly bowed down to Alpha Jike in respect. He seems satisfied a bit.
"Alpha Xavier, this girl is Omega." Alpha Jike sweetly fake smile at the males while clutching my right wounded shoulder tightly. I wince but still kept a poker face on and look at the floor. I didn't want to be weak in front of the males and embarrassed Alpha Jike. But I already did once when I bumped into one of them.
"Why is she the only one omega?" A scary voice boomed throughout the room.
Okay, I actually flinch at the scary voice. Loud, scary and harsh. More than Alpha Jike.
Goosebumps ran through my arms, chills ran down my spine when a gaze continue to stare at me. Jennifer purred, liking the stare she earns. Damn, I'm curious. I'm definitely going to have a beating for disrespect afterward.
With hesitate, I slowly lift my head up to see but my breath hitch. A light emerald green eyes directly stare at me.
My heart begins to beat faster, my face became warm. I looked back down at the dirty cold cement. Butterfly swarm in my stomach.
Please, Moon Goddess...Is he the one?
