Diary of one last summer

The beginning of summer

Part 1: The beginning of summer

Hello, my name is Natalie and this is my diary, the diary of my second summer as a high school student, the summer that I first started living life.

Since I never really cared about living I wasn't afraid of death either, but recently I've been watching the news with my mother and apparently all they show there are different kinds of deaths and I couldn't help asking myself 'were they happy before they died?', 'were they satisfied with everything they did up until that moment?', 'or maybe they regret dying and wish they could come back and do the things they never had the chance to do. Maybe they feel miserable because they didn't live, love, feel things humans should feel at least once in their lifetime.' 'what if they never find peace?' 'what if they spend their eternity regretting they wasted their one life?' And this made me wonder about myself. What if I were to die? Not necessarily in a car accident but you can never know when a burglar can break into your house and kill both your parents and even you in the attempt of stealing everything that you own. Let's say that would happen. If I were to live, I don't think I could survive the pain of losing my parents but if I were to die, I would certainly regret not living my life to the fullest. So after thinking about all of this I came to a conclusion: if I die, then that's it, I don't mind but I don't want to die before having the time of my life so I decided that I will make this summer be the reason I wouldn't regret dying if that were to happen.

June 1st - First day of summer

Today summer officially starts and I'm still in school with a big plan though. Having the best summer ever was already decided but you can't really do that alone. So what else are best friends for if not helping you have an epic time? Therefore Vicki and Ella were needed, immediately.

"So what exactly are you planning on doing?" Vickie asked with a suspicious look on her face.

"I don't know. Basic stuff that teenagers do: fall in love, get drunk, party."

"Well, I don't know what to say about it, Nat. That's not really like you... " Ella said while moving her eyes quickly from mine to Vickie's.

"I know! That's the whole idea! No homework, no school, no stress just living life to the fullest."

"You weren't doing your homework anyway... "

"Vick!"

"Got it, got it."

"And admit it Nat, school wasn't such a big stress for you either."

"Of course Ella, bring me down! Kill my mood!"

"Are you sure you're not high or something?"

"Nah drugs are not really for Natty... Maybe she has fever. " Vickie touched my forehead to check.

"Guys!"

"Ok, ok let's get serious! School's not over until the 16th so what will you do with your plan?" Ella stopped waiting for me to back down and admit it was a bad idea.

"Well I have two more weeks of school so I'll just do my best to pass and maybe we could go out more."

"You also mentioned falling in love..." Ella said smiling.

"Yeah."

"What about Kamine? Why don't you use those remaining two weeks to get closer to him?"

"Kamine is an old story."

"You've liked him since elementary school!" Ella smirked.

"Yeah and nothing happened so I'm tired of waiting and..."