I sit on the floor resting against my closed door has I cry in pain. Everything that's happening around me is becoming hard to take. Outside my room my mum cries in leg pain not even able to stand. I can hear whispers of my dad telling her everything will be ok. I can hear her constantly saying its becoming worse. I close my ears not being able to listen. I start to think what if I die ?like I've written in my diary yesterday. Will everything become alright. I know that it will hurt my parents more but I'm the reason they are living and brought upon so much of debts. Maybe if I die they will die too and are souls can live happily. I take my phone to listen to some music and watch sign of the times because only Harry can make me smile right now. My phone is blank so I click the on button. The word ANDROID flashes on my screen. I wait for it to come on but it doesn't. I groan and keep my phone aside. I start to think how lonely my life is becoming. I start humming Two ghosts has I try picturing a future which is bright , with no worries cause Harry is there with me. Harry Styles the man I always loved but is actually a stranger. Its stupid knowing many fans love him and its impossible we'll be a thing. He doesn't even know me. But he's the only man I loved and can make me smile. Nearly an hour goes by and yet my phone shows the the word android.
Great now even my phone isn't working
Fear takes over me and anger. With so much of difficulty my dad bought this phone and now it isn't working. I pull my hair in anger. I hear my mum mumble in tears that its paining a lot. I cry even more. My mind starts to blame me again that I'm the cause for everything. I'm the cause for them landing in debts is because everything they bought for credit was because of me and now my mum suffering is because I've been so lazy and never helped my mum in everything.
"I'm the worst daughter" I whisper
I stand up and go to my school bag. I rummage it in search of my journal. Everything I feel and felt is updated in it. I start to panic when its not in it.I start looking around but find It no where. I remember throwing it away in the dustbin of a park. Because I'm gonna end my life. Yes. I did over think yesterday after writing my death note in it . I was on a mind not to do so but I can't take it any longer. I hear my mum scream in pain. I look at my phone and see the same thing. In anger I take it and fling it at the wall.
I climb the window and jump out. I start running to the place I destined my dead. The place I wrote my diary in about it. The bridge. Soon I reach it. I waste no time in climbing the wall. I hold onto a lamppost and look at the water below. This is it. I close my eyes and take out my hand from the post. I jump but has I expect I don't fall into the water. Someone grips my hand. I look down and find me hanging above the water. I look up and gasp when I see Harry holding my hand. Harry Styles the one person I wanted to meet all through out my life. Suddenly I don't wanna die.
"Save me Harry" I scream in fear
I give him my other hand and he takes it. He pulls me up and carefully rescues me. I see him hold my diary in his hand and Everything becomes clear he read it. I cling onto him and start crying. He wraps his arm around me holding me tight.
"I'm so sorry for everything that happened in your life (Y/N)" he says in a sad tone.
I just cry not saying a word.
"Please don't end your life. Life is Beautiful and so are you. You need to fight" he says
He pulls away and grabs my shoulder
"Life isn't gonna be like this forever. It will change soon enough trust me. Please just hold on. It will be OK"
I nod
"Thank you for saving me" I whisper
"Thank you for letting me save you. I'm glad I was one of the reasons you held on so dearly" he says with a smile
I wipe my cheeks and nod
"And you will always be"
"I'll always be there when you need me. Just think of me and I'll be there. Everything will be fine I promise"
I nod and smile
"Remember you can't see rainbows if you don't face the storm "
*
"Get up ! Y/N wake up baby"
I startle up and look around
"Harry Harry?" I call
I'm met with the sweet smile of my mum
"Had another dream?" She asks
I frown
A dream?
But it seemed so real
"How is your leg pain?" I ask
"Still there. You know what? Your dad got a bonus today!"
"Oh my gosh! Really?" I ask amusement
"Yes. Cmon now let's go celebrate"
I smile and watch her leave my room. I quickly grab my phone and on it. luckily it comes on showing the man's face I adore
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"You were right Harry. Rainbows do come after storms. Thank you for saving me" I whisper with a smile
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this is dedicated to those with tough lives....
You can't see rainbows if you don't face the storm
