Tic-Tac-Toe

One Toke Poke

Creeping into the yard that was separated from the road by the worn down wood that was plastered with off white paint. They were held together with rusted nails that were unwinding themselves out their holes. I'm sure someone has begged her to take this fence down. The mud cling to my beaten up black boots, my jeans were stiff and my knees were stained with deep brown from me kneeling. Flicking my cigarette bud I stomp up the wooden stairs, exhaling before knocking loudly.
The night was young as the sun was starting to hide behind the barns roof. The cool breeze brushed my cheek ever so gently causing my eyes to squint. Sniffing the snot that crept down my nostril the door creeks open and her pale hand rested on the doors damaged wood. Her blonde hair was pulled into a bun held together with her metal pin. Her icy blue eyes were gentle and the lids were stained pink.

"Rion?" Her voice sung and the tension on my body lifted

"Hey mama" my body pauses as I wait for conformation to hug her.

Her stern look turned soft and she pulled me into a tight hug. I can't help but to fall into her embrace.
Me and my mother never had a great relationship. She always came across as that horrible teacher that cares but has a harsh way of showing it. I wanted her to love me I'd do anything for her to love me, but I know she wouldn't. Stepping aside she allows me to walk in, I hear her exhale loudly and I know the usual her is back.

  "what happened to your shirt?" Her voice was stern and her eyes were like darts.

     The plaid button up was stained with dark blood ignoring her question I sit on the dark leather chair glancing at the clock than realizing how the living room was set up. Everything was new and updated , the furniture looked untouched and there wasn't any trace of dust.

    "Crawford?!" My attention was yanked from my thoughts and she stood with her hand on her hip.

     "Katherine how long have you e been staying here?" My eyes never lefter her gaze and she readjusted her stance.

     "We aren't here to discuss me Orion, you randomly appear at my house covered in dirt and blood if your getting mixed with bullishit again I'm not helping yon again." She walks to the fireplace  standing grabbing the remote flicking the tv off then throwing the remote back on the couch.

   "Help me ?! Katherine you been avoiding me, you left me! Packed your shit  and couldn't care about me. I had to do a huge search for you! You never wanted to help me, what mother doesn't want to help their son?!? Katherine what did I do to you ? You hate me you always have!" My voice gets louder, she's horrible the worst mother. I hate her.

    "Mom what's going on?" My eyes snap to the doorway their stood a younger dark haired guy, he wore a dark blue sweater with a light button up under. His kaky pants were perfectly ironed and his hair laid neat.
    
       "Rory, honey all is fine. This young man was just leaving." Her voice was gentle and calming as she walked placing her hand on his shoulder.
    
       "Were you lost?" The young guy continues and a lump starts to form in my throat. It feels as if I'm suffocating, my eyes start to water. I can't cry, not in front of this witch of a lady.

      "Yes honey he was just asking directions" she smiles rubbing his back.

     " honestly fuck you Katherine, Rory get to know your mother more, she can't even claim her first born." Standing I walk to the front door pausing as my palm presses against the cold door knob.

     "You know what Katherine, I-I thought I could forgive you, I thought we could be a family. But your fucked and, and you can't even acknowledge it!" My eyes water and my voice cracks.
   
    "You can burn in hell" I sniff walking out the door slamming it behind me before storming off to my truck.
    Yes that's my mother. Sad right? If she was the last person that had to be my parent I wouldn't pick her, I'd rather die. She can rot in hell. Now she has a kid she's babying, giving the world to. What's so special about him? Why would she treat me like shit? What did I do? Fuck Katherine and fuck her stupid life.

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      "Oldest born?" The words slip through my lips as my eyes stayed glued to the spot he stood before. Her sighs filled the empty space as she walks and sits in the couch.

   "Mother!..... what did he mean by first born?" "You have another son?" My hands shake and palms become sweaty.

   "Rory relax" rushing over to me she starts to stroke my hair slowly. My skin boils and I push her off.

   "Don't touch me! I have a brother, he's your son! Your neglecting him!" I stand yelling at her as she stands emotionless.

   "Rory, he's no one important, trust me." She walks to the kitchen finishing the dishes.

   "He's your son! Why wouldn't you want him around ? Why can't you love him like you do me?" My eyes water.

   "Because....Rory just drop it!" Her back is to me as she scrubs a plate.

  "Because what? Tell me! You treat him like shit why?" I yell

  "Because he's not you! He'll never be like you. I wasn't suppose to have him, I was meant to have you! Now shut up and leave it alone! Turning to me she yells into my face , a tear leaves a trace on her cheek and my heart skips a beat.

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Hey guys this is chapter one! Not long but I was excited about getting a new story out and I plan on finishing it! Let me know what you guys think please I need feed back! 💋