Flicker

Chapter two

The rest of my days a blur. I dont have friends. Im not lonely cause ive got my novels as friends. Right now im reading, The girl on the train. Its amazing! I take my time getting home cause im dreading it. Moms going to ask about my day and i dont feel like talking about it cause that stupid Alexander ruined it. He just walked away and i havent seen him since. How are we going to work on the project if i cant even find him. Moms going to freak when i tell her about him. Hes stupid but i wont lie and say hes isnt hot. " And way out of your league," my conscience reaminds me in a sing song voice. Im so lost in my own world i dont even realise ive reached home. I get in through the back door to avoid mom but it doesnt work. " Steph!!! " Aghhhh i knew this was going to happen, " how was your first day? Any new friends? A boyfriend? A" before she asks another question i cut her off "Mommmm aghh, a boyfriend? Seriously?"
"I was just asking. Sooo tell me about your day," she says excitedly.
My moms too much sometimes. Its like shes a kid high on sugar but i love her.
" It was boring mum. Buttt i meet a new guy today. He's hot mom Oh my goodness you should see him. Too bad hes stupid,"I say.
"Spill." I do as shes says and tell her about Alexander. She says maybe hes not that bad once you get to know him. Ill give him a chance.
When she asks what we are having for supper, we look at each other, its like we can read each others mind. So we shout, " Chinese!" At the same time.
Ive got nothing to do after supper so i go to bed. We live in a small too bed roomed house. Its small by cozy. Its got a cabiny feel to it with the wooden walls and stone floor and fire place. Its just me and mom. We used to be the three of us till dad died. I dont remember everything. All i remember is dad and i singing Just like heaven by The cure at the top of our voices kn our way home the the next thing i see is the car flipping sooo many times. It happened 5 years ago but I still cry everytime i remember mum telling me that he didnt make it. I cant help but think i shouldve died too. We were in that car together, why didnt i die too? I remember him saying " I love you darling. Take care of mum" his blood was everywhere. I still have nightmares. I never told mom when i started having them but theyve gotten worse recenly cause the date of his death is soon. 21 st May. My birthday. Ive never celebrated it cause i didnt see the need to. I wish he was still alive. With that thought and i wet pillow I fall aspleep.