All Those Feelings

my true friends.

*the song up top describes me. The lyrics and everything describes me so well*
Liane:
I remember the black top in the back of our school. All of the classes were chalked into it. We never used it, only for firedrills and our first day of school. I remember being the new girl, walking up to the 2d line being as nervous as baby goat being born into this dysfuctional world. Than I saw you and I quickly calmed down. At that very moment I knew you were going to be my bestfriend.

              And I was right. 4 years later, we still are the same girls that talks about harry potter, lorde, and halsey. Man we really are the biggest nerds you'll meet. But who cares? I remember going to your house in May in second grade. You exploded a whole bottle of coke and spilled it on your living room rug. That was the first time I've ever seen you act crazy. Your mom was about to explode with anger and we stood there laughing our butts off.

We didnt really talk in third and fourth grade because we we're in different classes. But in fifth grade, we were finally reunited. I never told you this, but it felt good. Even though we barely made eye contact in third and fourth grade, it felt good to have my friend back. Last year, I knew we were going to be unstoppable. No one was going to drag us down. I wouldn't let them. Every time there was drama, you were there to comfort me.

I'll admit, last year was 1 of the worst year ever. I had a few fake friends. But now I finally decided to cut them out. There's a few things I haven't told you or Vanessa. For example how I feel or felt in the past.

I always felt werid, different, and I had so many mood changes throughout my whole life. And I never noticed that. I have a huge secret that no one knows execpt me. I was afraid of telling anyone because I thought you would probably stop being my friend.

A few weeks ago, my doctor told me he's 100% sure I'm bipolar. You guys already know that but there's something else. He wasn't the first doctor to tell me that. IT was about 2 or 3 years ago 2 other doctors told me the same thing. But I was 8 or 9 at that time and I didn't even know what bipolar disorder was, so I just ignored it and moved on with my life. I remember telling you guys and being afraid of your reactions. I was so scared. I thought I was going to have mental health issues in the future. I didn't want you to think I'm a psycho who belongs in a hospital.

But I was wrong. Once I told you guys, you gave me endless support. You told me you were going to help me get through it if anything happened. You didn't know how good it felt know you were sticking with me. I felt so grateful to have such amazing friends like you.

Vanessa:
Oh Vanessa, where do I start? I remember last year we didn't even know each other. We were both annoyed at each other. And now this year, we're basically like sisters.

I never told you this but I like it when you talk about servus snape. Thats when I know your ,yourself. I love how I'm never afraid to be my crazy, werid, unquie, self when I'm around you guys. I love how I laugh like a hyena and make werid noises  and you guys just go along with it.

You guys are my true friends........