Sorry

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I'm sorry,
Sorry I can't be good enough,
Sorry I can't handle you,
Sorry I can't do things right,
Sorry I can't take your words,
Sorry I've closed off so they don't hurt me,
Sorry I can't give you the confidence to do better,
Sorry I never know what to say to calm your argument,
Sorry that you couldn't be my centre of attention when the kids are talking too,
Sorry I'm tired,
Sorry I'm emotionally drained,
Sorry I don't argue back,
Sorry I feel weak,
Sorry I was pregnant before we'd had chance to have our first argument,
Sorry my personality disappeared,
Sorry I'm not as fun as I was,
Sorry I can't be spontaneous anymore,
Sorry I don't work more and earn more,
Sorry I can't spend as much time as I'd like to with the kids,
Sorry I've been worn down over the years,
Sorry I feel like I'm walking on eggshells,
Sorry I breathe a sigh of relief when you go out.
Sorry I can't fulfil your needs,
Sorry my taste isn't always what you think,
Sorry I'm not passionate about my likes and dislikes,
Sorry you teased that out of me,
Sorry I'm educated,
Sorry you lost your keys and I didn't find them quickly enough,
Sorry I haven't washed the shirt you left in a heap in the opposite corner to the washing basket,
Sorry I haven't sorted a plumber to fix the toilet you broke trying to fix it,
Sorry I can't afford to buy a takeaway,
Sorry the food I make can only please the kids OR you,
Sorry I made the food you asked for but didn't do it well enough
I'm sorry that you're volatile and fly off the handle shouting and putting me down because something small and insignificant has wound you up.
I'm sorry it upset me when you told me to do the opposite of whatever I thought was a good idea, because I always do the wrong thing.
I'm sorry I can't stand the way you talk to me and how you put me down.
I'm sorry I try to get to sleep before you get home.
I'm sorry I feel I can't see my friends anymore.
I'm sorry you see yours 3 nights a week.
I'm sorry I can't keep this up much longer.
I'm sorry I can't pretend to be happy.
I'm sorry I had to work more when our daughter was little because you walked out of your job.
I'm sorry you want all the control but none of the responsibility.
I'm sorry I don't want my children to grow up thinking this is how relationships are.
I'm sorry our five year old told you to stop shouting at me, she shouldn't have to do that. It broke my heart.
I'm sorry I don't feel the love you tell me you have.
I'm sorry I think it would be easier without you.
I'm sorry I feel like I've wasted 10 years. I'm sorry I wish you weren't the father of our children.
I'm sorry I feel scared to ask you to leave because I know you'll be awful.
I'm sorry I'm scared you'll use our children to hurt me.
I'm sorry I'm sick of constant put downs.
I'm sorry I can't keep taking it.

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