lost in lust {z.m}

{chapter one}

{chapter one}

Zayn's Pov

I sit there silently , watching her every move . I'm like the predetor & she is my prey . I've been watching my little angel for about a month now , when she's at school , work , walking home . Wherever she is ... I'm always watching .

Rose's Pov

Standing there , as a cashier at Claudia's Café isn't my most favorite thing to do on a Friday evening . While most of the kids at my school , actually all the kids at my school are probably partying the night away or with their lover , I stand here hoping that I get to go "home" soon .

Do you want to know the reason why i say "home" ?

Well , for starters , I live in a old , crummy , filthy , dusty apartment with my "so called of a mother" & my little sister who barley started primary school . My mother is a drug addict . Never home & when she is she's probably high & sleeping the whole day . Well for my "father" ? He left me and my mother after i was born .

Yada yada , I don't have a horrible life because of one little pocket of sunshine who makes feel worthy & who I love to bits and pieces . My little sister , Skye .

My mother isn't really of a mother figure to us so I'm basically the backbone of the house . I work 3 different jobs . I go to school . I do the shopping . I pay monthly's rent . All because my mother lives to get high each day .

I don't blame her though , maybe after I was born she regretted me ? Or maybe she never wanted a child ? Maybe I was a mistake ? After all , my mother did have me at 16 . That's why my father left , didn't he ? He didn't want a child in the way of his life . He was young & wanted to live . Maybe it was best for him to leave .

I'm not a very outgoing , open person . In fact , I'm a very closed off person . I keep everything bottled up inside me & hide my feelings . I don't trust anyone because of what I've been through . I don't need anyone . I can handle everything by myself . I don't need a mother . I don't need one of her stupid boyfriends . All I need is me , myself , and I .