Haven't I told myself about a thousand times now that nothing can ever bring me down
Isn't it the highest form of hypocrisy to feel invincible by tearing down others
Don't we all deserve a chance to prove our own might against ourselves?
But how can we be happy if we never makes those around us happy
I'm so sorry to those whom I've given a hard time trying to figure me out
I'm also sorry to those whose time I've wasted pretending to be someone I'm not
It's all because there's a dense cloud of distortion of emotions stirring inside me
If I were to give you the prettiest flower in the garden, I'd have to ignore so many just to find you the perfect one
If I were to show you the brightest star in the sky, I'd have to search far and wide because it won't be easy to come by one
Because no one would go through all that to find perfection, at least that's what I think
And it surely explains why we settle so quick... because it felt right at the moment
I now see that I actually am unlovable, not because I don't seek affection but because I won't ever have anyone to seek it with
I've met a few passersby who thought this is an adventure of some sort
Yeah, we had some good times and some crazy ones too but none of them could ever keep up
And none of them ever sought to sojourn even for a second, because this journey takes you to hell and back
Not many want to relive what they went through but I do, because it's the only way forward
I guess I'm friends with my inner demons because nothing can inflict me more pain than they
In this world full of travesty where everything comes at a price, many are willing to sacrifice the things they love most for a little bliss
But I'd rather take the abuse, the scorning, the torture than to enjoy a short preexisting prevarication
