Dear Funeral (Jung Hoseok FF)

Chapter 5

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3 weeks

I grew anxious, paranoid because I didn't even saw the torn out paper that I always saw. I don't want to tell Suga about it. We also got busy with the promotions of our album .

"JHope!"

"Hyung!"

"JHope, are you okay?" Jin's loud voice makes me go back to oblivion.

"Yeah. I am. Why are you shouting, though?" 

"Stupid. We're asking you about the next choreography of our possible song yet here you are, indulge in your own dreamland." Jimin said. I sighed. My mind is too preoccupied with thoughts about that mysterious letter sender: Dear Funeral, Soon to be decease. I'm wondering why he/she feels that way?

"Is there something wrong Hobi?You seem out of focus lately." Namjoon said. So he noticed it too. I laughed, started doing my job as the most hopeful person in the group.

"Nah. I'm just thinking about random things. So, as expected from me, I wanted a hard and fast choreography." I heard the others yell except Namjoon, Jin and Suga. And just like that, the atmosphere of the room came back to normal again. Mission accomplished. 

We all started talking about random things when Suga scooted closer to me then hands me a familiar looking paper.

"I found this mixed in my fan letters. I haven't read it . So open it now fucker. " 

Dear Funeral,

I love earphones or headphones  or whatever you call it. Because it's one of the few things that kept me sane for some reason. They always say that it's bad for your health especially ears but who the fuck cares?

It's either deaf or dead. Choose. Option 2 sounds really appealing. 

Just plugged the two earphones at your ears then blasts a really loud music then don't give a shit around what's happening to you. 

Just like what Suga said in his mixtape:

I don't give a shit. I don't give a fuck. 

What's the root cause of these deep loneliness anyway? 

family problems

financial problems

school problems

health problems and myself.

See?

Me and Suga both stared at each other. 

This really needs to stop. 

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