over

...

spilling my heart out

in words

is so easy for me

but why cant i spill my heart out

to other people?

it's so terribly difficult

i keep it all bottled up

i feel like im going to vomit

my heart feels like its stopped beating

i don't feel alive

i feel dead

but im breathing

im alive

why is there such a contradiction?

why do people care

and yet they don't care enough?

why does everything

contradict itself?

why?

please tell me why