18 days left
A week has passed since I last saw him. Luckily my parents haven't found out about the 'meeting'. Since then he hasn't called me and neither have I. I didn't want to annoy him, maybe I did something wrong and he doesn't like me anymore...
As the days went by I was getting more and more frustrated.
17 days left
I can't think of anything but him. I decided to get my mind out of it by cleaning my room. I organised my table and shelves and moved to my bed. I'm not a person who does their bed when they get up, in fact I rarely even do it. I took all the sheets and pillows, dropped it on the floor and dusted my matress. Then placed the sheets and pillows back in place. Standing and looking around to appreciate the work I just did, I noticed an envelope on the ground under the long grey curtains. I instantly remembered what it was, Yoongi gave it to me and said to read it that night but I fell asleep and totally forgot about it. I grabbed the envelope and dropped myself on my now tidied bed. There were two folded pieces of paper in the envelope. Both of the letters were handwritten. 'Damn he has a pretty handwriting' I thought to myself unfolding one of the letters.
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Dear diary,
I can't stop thinking about her. She's so perfect I love her so much. I haven't seen her in a while and I miss her so much. I will think of a solution to meet her, I already have some ideas. Either way I wish to run away with her from all of this shit. Noone ships us here and it's hard to share our love with each other when you have to hide it. I have already though of where we would go and live. My mind has more positivity than ever before, I feel like depression is fading. Thanks to my baby kitten Y/n♡
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That touched my heart, so cute and honest, I love it. I put the letter aside and unfold the other piece. It was also handwriten, a little messier but still pretty.
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Hey, it's me :)
Sorry about this cringe letter and even cringier piece of my diary, but I just want you to know that I can't stop thinking about you. Your presence alone is something wonderful. I love you so much and it's getting harder and harder not to show it... I have already thought of some ways to meet you, and I'm going to try it tomorrow, if it succeded call me and say the magic words " I love you"
P.S
I can't even run away from you when I'm asleep, I love you so damn much :*
~Yoongi
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"I fucked up" I murmur with a blind sight looking nowhere. After a few seconds, I got something like an adrenaline attack which made me rush to my phone which was on my desk. I quickly typed the words I erased it a few times retyping the same text, questioning should I send it or not, will it look pathetic of me to do so after a week of silence. Maybe he is pissed at me or thinks that I don't love him anymore just because I didn't message him. I clicked 'send' and hoped for the best...
