Why am I not good enough?

Dear diary, Hey its Alivia and I just lost my best friend due to hitting on her boy. I feel like a total idiot. She was my only friend now I have none. And every boy I like and ask out says no. When I ask why they say... because you are not good enough. I feel like no one likes me and no one ever will. I want to die.-June 5th

Dear diary, it's Alivia again and school has started and there is this new boy he is really cute and nice and we are already friends. I really like him but don't want to tell him yet because it could ruin our friendship. So I guess I will just wait for awhile.- September 7th

Dear diary, Logan... The new kid has joined in with the 'cool kids' and they told him about me but I didn't know that so I told him how I felt and I asked him out. What he said almost killed me... He said No, you are not good enough. And he told me he had a girlfriend. His girlfriend is the prettiest girl in school. I am never gonna fall in love😭- October 5th

Dear diary, there is a new kid again he is cute but I am not his friend because he is Logan's and he was told what to say if I ask him out. But at lunch he always sits down at my table and I swear he stares at me. It's kinda creepy. But when I look up to see he looks away real fast then looks at me and smiles. I think he likes me but he might be doing what Logan and them say. I'm confused.-November 12th

Dear diary, Mason is the new kid I told you about that I think likes me. He asked if we could be friends and I asked him if Logan told him to ask but he promised no and stopped hanging out with them and started hanging with me! Then Logan stared bullying Mason for hanging out with me then I decided to step up and tell him to back off and pick on me, not him. He did. One day I asked Logan why I'm not good enough and he said..." Because you are the ugly, disgusting, schools hoe" I was puzzled and asked Mason if he thought that he said no I think Mason likes me more now!!!- December 1st

Dear diary, Today I decided to tell Mason I liked him he said ok then I asked him out and what he said shocked me and changed my life forever. He said...