Chromophobia

-Dedication-

You're never going to see this, but if you do, it's because I showed it to you, so you know who you are. This one's for you.

A) I didn't use your nane, thought that would be appropriate, and B) You might ask me why I wrote this, or how I remembered all those flustery feelings, it's easy: Girls always remember all the little details regarding their first love. It's why I remember the little details about you: how you prefer chocolate, the other activities you're into that don't happen at shcool, your favorite movies, and the anniversary day.

You came into my life so fast, and I thought you'd just be another friend.

(I actually ended up voting for you and my best friend to be the homecoming court reps for our class, thinking you would be the one for my bestie before I ever thought about loving someone myself.)

(Now I think it was me knowing that you were a really great guy and that I wanted the best for my best friend.)

But that changed and you asked me to one little dance. I remember the way you stuttered quietly and backed out, right before we started a soccer game. It left me wondering for a few hours if someone really thought I was good enough to be their date, and why someone would ask me then deny it. Then you asked again, much more confident, and it was my turn to stutter and accept. I still remember people asking if we were a couple yet and I remember the looks on their faces when I finally told them yes.

The funny things between us are what I remember best: that one kid thinking we weren't a true couple until we had made out a couple of times. The upperclassmen in band and my name's effect. Our robotics team constantly calling us out.

It's now been over six months since we started. In the beginning, people asked me if I was really making the right choice. They thought I was too young, that it wouldn't last more than a month, couldn't last.

I know I made the best choice.

Six months later, here we are. We've had our firsts: The first dance turning into the first awkward hug. The first time you tried to kiss me (and every time you tried after that) where I awkwardly shied away for months before finally letting it happen. The first date after waiting so long.

You're right, I guess we are a pretty funny couple.

But you know me, I like funny. I think the funniest people are the best.

Thanks for everything. You're giving me the best moments of my life, so I'll keep trying my best to make sure that I'm giving you the best times of your life.

You truly do bring so much to my life. I only hope I'm giving you even more than what you give me.

You really are the color in my dark world.