~Lost Girl:a girl trying to get found~

why?!?!?!

~last time on Lost Girl:~

"can we stop with the nicknames"

"ohh come on, fine ill call you cutie when its just two and em in public. How does that sound?" he said getting closer to my face.

"its fine" was all i said with a red face.

         Yet unnoticing the anonymous person on the other side of the door.

~''now for the time you've been waiting for enjoy''~

               We shared a couple of laughs and as I thought I was going to have fun in this new life, memories from the past began to hit me like a truck.

                         'i know I can't escape my old life, but I could learn from my past. I mean is he even different here?  what happens if I fall in love with him like I did  back there?  I mean  we were friends once, but the incident in middle school; and he did choose lea over me. WHAT AM I THINKING?!?!?!?!  I am NOT or ever  will have feelings for him. that was all middle school. I mean I haven't seen her here yet, sooo there's a possibility that she's not here. I could have my chance, he could be mine. WAIT that's just my heart talking, it would never happen. he would just use me for his own pleasures. no ever since he dated lea he was like that. she's not here, this is my chance to have my story written my way.' my thoughts were cut-off by Nathan.

               "hey, are you ok? you spaced out for a while", he said with a worried tone. "ohhh, yeah I'm fine", i said giggling . " so who are you really? as in the real you, no fake laugh, no fake smile. the real you, i can tell you went to school. i bet you were the popular one, with the kind heart and the one all the guys chase or fall on their knees for". he said with a hint of jealousy in his voice." sorry to disappoint you but that wasn't me, i was more  like the lonely one who everyone pushed around". he was surprised  at what i said". "nahh, you don't have to lie to me, I'm not like some guys that only want girls who have popularity in rise." 'you kinda were back then' i mentally said. " I'm sorry if you don't believe me, but what I'm saying is true. I'm nothing special, I'm a nobody", i said with a sadden tone. he was taken back with all i said and he tried to clear the darkness within the atmosphere between us. " well they are all blind  and missing out on an amazing friend" he said while rubbing the back of his neck." awww, thanks, you're an amazing guy, i bet you have all the girls bow down at your presence" i said giggling.

                    "i mean i would be surprised if you fell head over heals for me, cutie~" he said with a smirk on his face." Never gonna happen you goofball" i said laughing. " at least ill be your goofball" he said getting closer  and with a hand on his chin." sure, why not. just don't be like a lost puppy" i said jokingly. "we'll see who would be who's lost puppy at the end of the day?" he said laughing and all i could do was laugh along. as my laughter died down i looked down with a frown. what he did next surprised me, he hugged me. but this hug didn't feel ordinary, i could hear his heart beat and it was soothing. we stood in the same position for a while, until i pulled away with a smile.

                     i looked up at him and gave him a closed eyed smile. he blushed and said "you look beautiful when your smiling, so never stop smiling." as he said I could feel my face warm up as I realized that I was blushing, i quickly turned around and said " thanks, nobody's ever said that to me before, soo thank you Nathan, your really sweet" he put his fingers on my chin and lifted my face towards him and said "and  i meant every word". there was a small gap between us and he started to pull in little by little. i could practically feel his breath on my lips. but i knew this was wrong even if it felt right. i cleared my throat and slowly pulled away. then scooted away from him, we stood there in awkward silence. "hey, I'm so-" was all he could say until someone came in. and when i thought life couldn't get any worse the mythic bitch  came running towards Nathan with a big hug.

                             i automatically felt forgotten as they had their own conversation." ohh so she's awake, i was soo worried" she said with a fake worried tone." ohh yeah, lea this is Emma, Emma this is my wonderful girlfriend lea" he said with pride. The pride that once again broke my heart, i was soo stupid to think this place could be different , i guess old things never change. as always they had their own conversation," umm, i would hate to be a bother, i should get going", i said with a fake happy tone . "wait, you still need time to heal" he said  worried about my health, when has he ever worried about me? i think never. " ummm, ill be fine. bye" was all i said when i ran outside. i was only half way  to the woods until i was blacking out, all i could see was a guy with dark green hair running towards me until all i could see was pitch darkness.

~author's note~

this chapter was longer this time, well i hope you enjoyed and please share, vote, and comment for more.

have any suggestions to help me know what you want in this book, comment them and ill figure something out and like always.

~LostGirl off to Neverland~