i'm sorry . i'm sorry i couldn't have been the one to make you happy while you were here . i wish you were still here , breathing , living , laughing , i jus wish all of you was still here . i miss you so much . it's been hell trying to hold on without you here . you were always the one to pick me up when i was down , you were always the one keeping a smile on my face . it's been a little over a month since you've been gone and it hasn't set in that you're completely gone . this past month has been so hard , i miss seeing you around school . you'd always pick on me and call me names or even jus mess with me , but i knew it was all out of love . you'd do anything to keep me safe and to keep a smile on my face . i can't thank you enough for that . i wish i got the chance to say goodbye or even the chance to talk to you one last time . i loved you so much , i still do . you'd always pick me up when i was down and you'd always be the first one to wipe the tears from my eyes . man , you were one of the happiest kids i've ever met . rarely was there ever a time when i saw you down , you always had the biggest smile on your face when you saw me . you had so much going in life for you . you were an amazing skateboarder , you were a smart kid even if you didn't show it and you were one of the kindest people i knew . you always had good vibes and you were always trying to make the best out of every situation . thank you for being my bestfriend and everything a girl could ever ask for . i know we had our ups and downs but they made us stronger and that's what made us closer .
