다 거짓말 (ASTRO MyungJin)| English

Prologue

Trying to live without you
There's nothing more painful than that
No night more scary than that
After I wake up, you're not here

Meeting Jinwoo was faith, Myungjun was sure of it but he wasn't sure why they ended up breaking up.
Their relationship was perfect even if nobody knew about it especially not their parents and maybe, Myungjun thought, maybe that was one of the reasons why they broke up.
Maybe it was because of Myungjun's fear of being judged by society.
His fear of getting rejected by his friends and family.
His fear of losing Jinwoo and in the end he managed to do exactly that with his urge to hide his boyfriend at all cost.
Now he lost him, his boyfriend, his love, his everything.
He didn't even know when everything went wrong, it was just over from one day onto the other.
Myungjun didn't even know if it was all his fault, heck he didn't even know who exactly broke up.
They just stopped talking one day and from then on lost their contact.
It wasn't like Myungjun didn't miss Jinwoo, he thought about him everyday but he just couldn't call him, he was afraid to do so especially if the breakup was his fault.
Myungjun loved Jinwoo, it wasn't a crush, he knew it was true love and he still loved him unconditionally.
He didn't know if Jinwoo felt the same but then again why would they have broken up if they truly loved each other?
As the hours became days and the days became weeks Myungjun wanted to forget about Jinwoo, knowing he will never be back in his life.
He tried his hardest to forget about the young man that meant the whole world to him, to forget about their first meeting, the many sleepless nights they spent because they were talking on the phone with each other, their secret but sweet rendezvous's and the nights that held all of their deepest desires and pleasure only to be followed by their many cute morning cuddles.
There were days where everything was absolutely perfect when they would just spend their day together, cuddled up in the bed the whole day or they decided to learn for their upcoming exams in the library, hidden behind books from the curious glances of the others.
There were days when everything felt like it was too much to handle, that the world will be crashing down but they were going through everything together, telling the other that everything will work out in the end and that there is nothing to worry about.
Most of the times it was about Myungjun's fear that someone may find out about their relationship, maybe it was better that Jinwoo left, the older often came to think that.
Jinwoo deserved to be loved by someone wholeheartedly who was not afraid to be seen with him. He deserved someone who could easily express his love for him and not someone like Myungjun who couldn't even tell him that he loves him as a joke in public.
It was then that Myungjun realized that Jinwoo was maybe suffering all this time, only waiting to have a chance to get rid of the older.
He didn't know the truth behind their breakup, he didn't know what or when everything went wrong and he definitely didn't know what Jinwoo was thinking all of this time and he he wasn't sure if he would ever find out, the only thing Myungjun knew for sure that he couldn't live without Jinwoo.
For him Jinwoo was his world, his universe, the reason he existed even if for Jinwoo he was probably just another guy.
And even if it seemed like he should be angry at Jinwoo for leaving him, that he didn't think Myungjun was his world too he just couldn't. Myungjun couldn't be angry at Jinwoo because he wanted him to be happy, all he ever wanted was Jinwoo to be happy and if he can't be happy with Myungjun he thought it was better that he left.
Even if everyday was torture for Myungjun, waking up to an empty bed side, not hearing his laughter and seeing his smile anymore and not getting kissed by him was like hell for Myungjun.
He didn't want to have another boyfriend, he didn't want a girlfriend either, he only wanted Jinwoo back and in order for that he had to know why they broke up in the first place.

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I'm back with another Fanfiction and this time it's my babies ASTRO. And because there are so many Binu/Binwoo Fanfictions out there I decided to make my first one a MyungJin one.
It'll be kinda angsty and sad but there will also be like happy, fluffy and romantic scenes in there.
It'll be a flashback/past concept on their whole relationship so yeah I hope you like that concept (first time I'm trying it).
It is also based on their song
다 거짓말 because I love it. If you don't know the song I also linked it at the beginning ^~^
Also support ASTRO because I love them and they are talented and they deserve everything.🖤