naruko's depression

chapter 1

First of all this is where naruko's family are alive and she has a twin brother and sister which is menma and mito okay thank you

Naruko's pov

People are so dense aren't they?
Can't they see that every time i smile im trying to cover up my sadness?
That everytime i laugh im falling apart
That when they learn the truth im not the girl that they thought i was.
Im not the girl that is strong willed that they always have high expectations of me that im starting to live with them that everytime i've done something wrong they look at me with disappointing looks that i look like a failure yet i only do something wrong can they realize im not perfect?

"Naruko!!  Snap out of it answer my question who is 1st Hokage and his specialty?" Asks iruka-sensei
" the 1st Hokage is  Hashirama Senju he specialize in wood style and he is the one who created the healing technique without a handsigns" i answer back
"Good job naruko"   said iruka-sensei
~~timeskip
I immediately go to my room and lock it
I get my phone and earphones on
Then play the song
Pls play the song above

Just an average girl
She always wore a smile
She was cheerful and happy for a short while
Now she's older
Things are getting colder
Life's not what she thought, she wished someone had told her

I cut myself with a cutter its not deep enough to make me bleed but deep enough to make a scar

She told you she was down, you let it slip by
So from then on she kept it on the inside
She told herself she was alright
But she was telling white lies
Can't you tell? Look at her dull eyes

Tried to stop herself from crying almost every night
But she knew there was no chance of feeling alright
Summer came by, all she wore was long sleeves
'Cause those cuts on her wrists were bleeding through you see

Another cut
It feels painful yet i feel so free?

She knew she was depressed, didn't want to admit it
Didn't think she fit in, everyone seemed to miss it
She carried on like a soldier with a battle wound
Bleeding out from every cut her body consumed

She had no friends at school, all alone she sat
And if someone were to notice she would blame the cat
But those cuts on her wrist, they were no mistake
But no one cared enough to save her from this self-hate

~~at school

"Hey naruko what are you doing right now?!"
She pushes me yes even though i was the hokage's daughter i wont escape the bullies this will take a while

~~time skipp
At home

Im done
I GAVE UP
I CAN'T HOLD ON ANYMORE
IM TIRED

All that happens is on the lyrics of the song

Things were going down, never really up
And here she is now stuck in this stupid rut
She knew exactly what she had to do next
Just stand on that chair and tie the rope around her neck

She wrote a letter with her hand shaking wild
"Look at me now! Are you proud of your precious child?"
But she knew that her parents weren't the ones to blame
It was the world that should bow down its head in shame

She stood up on the chair and looked out at the moon
Just don't think, it'll all be over soon
The chair fell down as she took her final breath
It's all over, all gone, now she's greeting death

Her Mom walks in, she falls down to the floor
And now nothing can take back what she just saw
The little girl that she raised is just hanging there
Her body's pale and her face is violently bare

She sees the note and unfolds it with care
All she does is stare, "How can this be fair?"
She starts reading as the tears roll down her face
"I'm sorry Mom but this world is just not my place

I've tried for so long to fix this and fit in
I've come to realize this world's full of sin
There's nothing for me here, I'm just a waste of space
I've got no reason to stay here with this awful race

It's a disgrace, I was misplaced
Born in the wrong time and in the wrong place
It's OK though, 'cause you'll see me soon
You'll know when your time has come, just look at the moon

As it shines bright throughout the night
And remember everyone's facing their own fight
But I can't deal with the pain, I'm not a fighter
You'll make it through the night, just hug your pillow tighter

So let the world know, that I died in vain
'Cause the world around me, is the one to blame
And I know in a year, you'll forget I'm gone
'Cause I'm not really something to be dwelled on

That's what they used to tell me, all those kids at school
So I'm going by the law "majority rules"
My presence on this earth is not needed any longer
And if anything, I hope this makes you stronger

You're the best friend that I ever had
Such a shame I had to make you so very sad
But just remember that you meant everything to me
And to my heart, you're the only one that held the key

Now it's time to go, I'm running out of space to write
And yes I lost my fight, but please just hold on tight
I'm watching over you from the clouds above
And sending down the purest and whitest dove

To watch over you, and be my helpful eye
So this is it, world, goodbye."

Kushina's pov

Its not fair at all it's so unfair
She is all i have i fell down in the floor
Then i touch something what is it?
A diary
I go to the last page

Hey diary wassup?
Miss me of course not i think you didn't even care about me either
Well today i will wither away ya know diary i don't fear death you know why?
Who would wanna lead in this place anyway it's all a lie yet so beautiful
I dont have any regrets because i will be facing the truth a painful truth
I wish they've seen it sooner so they could save me but i cant take back time life is.so unfair

But as they say death starts walking when i was so born in a slow but a steady pace

Goodbye diary

P.s this is a true story of the author i know chatacters shouldn't break the 4th wall but im telling you how ironic this is.
I always tell in stories that its not the answer yet i do it because it's the only way i could feel free when im writing the first part before iruka asks naruko i was crying because i dont want to see the disappointment looks i was getting im not PERFECT yet every single one of them cannot understand it because they thought i was strong they thought i am strong willed that i have a good life yet they have cleaner wrist that i have they don't notice that everything i do us a lie
I dont want to stand in stages with al lot of people I'm scared im nervous that once they know that im not the girl they know they will judge me
I dont want to be in quiz bee for a smartass students im not smart yet they push me
When i get 85percent down they will said what happened to your scores all you do is cellphone cellphone yet yhey didn't know that this cellphone is keeping me insane

Thank u for reading my story
Please dont tell me that
'That isn't the answer blah blah
Im tired of it so please stop telling it its hard