Sometime I feel like I made the wrong choices in life and I don't know why ... I'm trying my best to be me and it's hard when you suddenly open your eyes and realises what's hurting you is making you feel like you never had a purpose to life, in fact there are so many things I regret and so many people I lost ... I blame myself for mistakes that I shouldn't even be blaming myself for and there are mistakes where yeah I wish I wasn't alive or better yet I wish I didn't do it . Most the time I'm screaming and crying into my pillow because of the stress and because of people who made me live in hell for a year now ... Sometimes I wish I was treated better and there is times where I wanted to lock myself away and cry until the pain leaves but waiting for it to leave is like watching grass grow it will take ages and a lot tears ...
The thing is i dont know if I'm okay or if it's a journey I have to take by myself
