Out of the abundance of her heart
Her mouth speaks
But mine just cries
Wondering
What the heck did I do wrong
Broken but still trying to love
Searching but can not find
Harden by the day
I don't even think Christ would look my way
They say hurt people hurt people
So i guess i rest my case
But honestly I'm just tryna erase the memories I try fervently to forgive
Mistaken for my father
Compared to my mother
Watching things fall apart before my very eyes
The heart absorbs
Every broken promise
Every love tap
Every I love you followed by I can't make it
And I take that
Take every blow of the howling wind
The puffing and huffing that swiftly blows me into an oblivion
My heart is bleeding outta my flesh
My body craves for something that'll hurt less
But everything hurts...
Lies,
Secrets,
Even the Truth.
And the Truth is ...
I never should have become so familiar with her
I should have told her wasn't ready
I shouldn't have developed a dependency that would cause me to be so discombobulated when its off balance
I should have never acted outta spite
Especially when she ain't do me wrong
How could the strongest part of my body
Be so weak
But now her heart is truthfully speaks
Words that cut deep
"You don't even believe in me"
But I did
When I called you
Mom
