Love Is Dark

How I feel Empty(Journal Entry 1)

Wanna know how I feel empty inside? Well, let me tell you all about it. Well, when I was 4 years old, I feel a new emotion, happiness. I only feel empty inside of my soul. Anyway, I walked to school today and I see a few of teenagers somewhere my age as they looked at me, gossiping, but one boy and a girl walked up to me. "Hiya! Are you new here?" The boy asked. I stopped walking as I looked at the boy, who is catching up to me. "Y-Yeah.." I said as I looked away from the boy as I start walking. "Come on, Justin, just leave the new girl alone. Maybe she want to explore this school by herself." The girl said, rolling her eyes at Justin. "Oh, come on, Jessica, the new girl wants to make some new friends!" Justin said. Jessica ignored the boy as she catches up to me. As I entered to my locker, the girl, who has long brown hair that reaches until her thighs poked me on the shoulder. "Excuse me, but are you the new girl at this school?" She asked me. I looked at the girl. "Oh..Yeah I am.." I said, nodding slowly. She nodded. "My name is Jessica Williams. What is your name, new girl?" Jessica asked me, smiling. "My name is Isabella Martinez, nice to meet you, Jessica." I replied back, smiling. Jessica nodded as she smiled. "Don't worry about Justin, he likes to be a jerk to people." She said, giggling. I giggled as well, but I still feel empty inside. There are other reasons that I feel empty inside. But I can tell you why. Here is reason number 1: I have a incurable disease, which I really don't know to be honest. Somehow, for no reason, I don't know the other reasons for this. So, yeah, I made a new friend, which is Jessica...And I feel that I don't want to have friends, I want to be alone, etc. So, yeah, that is the reason how I feel empty inside, but there are some reasons that I can't explain. See you, journal.