elastic heart『 jikook 』

二十五

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monday

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jjk:
hyung

donteatjin:
yeah?

jjk:
there are some things i haven't been telling you lately

donteatjin:
i know

jjk:
what

jjk:
how

donteatjin:
i'm not blind, you're also very easy to read and i've known you for so long. i know when something's up

jjk:
you're not mad?

donteatjin:
mad for what?

jjk:
for me hiding things from you?

donteatjin:
jungkook. i'm just your make-up artist who's lucky enough to also be your friend

donteatjin:
this is your life and you get to decide who you confide in and who you don't. i, as a friend, can do nothing but accept that. you shouldn't feel obliged to tell me or anyone else all your problems if you don't want to

donteatjin:
i've asked you several times if you're okay and you always said yes. even if i knew you were lying, i didn't push it. i was sure you'd tell me at the right time

jjk:
oh

jjk:
uh well

jjk:
thank you hyung

donteatjin:
always here for you, jungkook

jjk:
well uhmmmm

jjk:
idk honestly it's just

jjk:
it's hard, you know?

jjk:
i really want to be friends with jimin again because i miss him

jjk:
but then again i know i will fall for him even more if i get any closer

jjk:
and i can't forget him

jjk:
i just really want to not feel like this

jjk:
i want it to stop

donteatjin:
jungkook

jjk:
yeah?

donteatjin:
we don't choose who we love

donteatjin:
worst case scenario already happened. you fell for your friend.

donteatjin:
it takes years for you to unlove somebody. and most of the time, even then, you don't really 'unlove' them completely.

donteatjin:
what you've got left to do now is choose between taking that path wherein you try to forget or you stay.

donteatjin:
i don't know which one's gonna hurt more. no one really knows.

donteatjin:
but let me ask you this,

donteatjin:
is your friendship with jimin really worth saving? would you rather not have jimin as a lover but as a friend?

donteatjin:
or would you rather lose him completely?