Euphoria

December 1, 2021; 9:18 am

It was the same routine everyday, wake up, brush my teeth, get into a new set of day clothes, and contemplate how to get all of my brothers back without ruining my future. It was also the same picture I woke up to, and the only decoration in my room, it was the the last picture I took of us when we were all happy, the picture of all of us by the sea, before Tae jumped. I travel back to this time almost everyday but I can never figure out how to save all of them, I could manage to do it if all of their tragedies didn't happen on the same night, I've tried getting all of them together but there  is always one who never shows up, Tae. He seems to be the one in the way of everything, but I can't really blame him, he was the one with the biggest problem. It's because of Tae and his life that ever since I got my power, I vowed to protect them at all costs, as the eldest I felt like it was my duty to keep us together, but it wasn't until I was able to time travel that I had hope I could do it. I kept a journal since the first week I figured out how to go back, I've tracked my progress, written down everyone's story, brainstormed countless solutions, and attempted over 100 times. I took it out and reviewed everything before traveling again, reading these entries still make me cry to this day, in the week that I had just discovered this power, I never stopped traveling, I wanted to learn everything I could before trying to fix things and it was honestly a pain to experience it up close, it was like watching a tragic movie where everyone loses. 

After Tae jumped into the sea and got out, Namjoon yelled at him, he told him to stop being so reckless, they argued for a few minutes until Namjoon walked away, later Tae followed, leaving the scene, and eventually everyone split up, not knowing how to handle the current situation.  Since I was new at traveling, I didn't want to do anything that would possibly damage the future, so I decided I'd follow each person, to get more of an understanding for their situation, I started with Tae. I watched from the window as he walked into his house, welcomed by his drunk father yelling at his younger sister, he slammed the door and stood soaking wet. His dad was obviously already angry but the fact that Tae was making a puddle and aggressively making noise made him even more mad. Before I could even blink his dad threw an empty beer bottle at him, he swerved in time, but that didn't stop his father from being aggressive. I guess that was his plan, because he didn't go anywhere after the bottle was thrown at him. Tae just stood confidently waiting for his father to come over and hit him, I can still hear the insults and slapping, I wanted more than anything to step in, I wanted to comfort his sister who was bawling in the corner but I didn't, it wasn't my time to step in and tart interfering. I still remember Tae's silent cries, and tears running down his face, but he concealed himself, taking the hits from his father. He knew if his father saw him, he would hit him even more, but he didn't mind taking the hits for his sister, he was a protector. His dad stopped yelling after some time, and with one final hit on the wall beside his head, he walked away. As soon as Tae knew his father was gone, he ran to his sister and embraced her in a loving hug. She cried profusely in his shoulder asking why her, Tae shook his head constantly, telling her that he'd "take care of it". He let her go and called Namjoon, he explained in detail what he intended to do, but Namjoon refused to help him. Tae killed his father that night and turned himself in an hour later. 

After he turned himself in, I decided to go check on another person, I chose to check on Namjoon, the one closest to Tae, but as I drove, I came upon an accident. An ambulance and many police cars were lined up, at first I was just concerned about getting around the accident, but once I saw the person on the stretcher I paused in disbelief, it was Jungkook, the youngest of us seven. I had to refrain from running from into the accident, tears streamed down my face as I went to the gas station where Namjoon worked, he was no where to be seen, not even his car was in sight. I began to freak out, so I moved on to checking on the other guys, I went by Yoongi's place to find he had set it ablaze, I ran inside to see he was burning, again I didn't interfere and even if I had, it was too late. Last was Hobi and Jimin, they were both together when I went by Jimin's house but not in a way I would've liked, Hobi was knocked out in an ambulance, while Jimin was being dragged out of his house by men in white. I followed both the vans Jimin and Hobi were put into and ended at a mental hospital.