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want to understand ??

Do you want to understand? do you want to know what its like to be me, to be lost ? hey im marley i honestly have lost alot of hope in my life. someone i feel like life has something out for me. i feel like ive done so much wrong.my life isnt complicated it kinda repeats its self everyday , just like all of the pain i feel it also repeats but everytime it somehow gets worse. this first chapter isnt going to be a storyline its going to be a understanding. and understanding of everything i feel , you couldnt understand how i feel , ive been threw alot in my life , im lost guys im only 16 and i feel like ive had enough hurt to last a lifetime... and i try so hard to get people to pay attention / care and it just doesnt happen. theres isnt much you can do u cant make people care about you and you cant make another person feel how you feel about them, you cant make people stop lies , you can make people trustworthy , and you cant make them give . i spend everyday trying to make things better trying to stay happy for people. but it never really works , the main point of my story is the word 'stay' ... stay with me (ext). i feel like i have no one that is constant in my life not even my parents at times, there isnt anything i can do to stop the hurting because everyday it just gets so much worse. i can never get people to be a constant in my life , they only come as pieces and when they are done they leave . and now im peace by peace falling apart. sometimes nature is so peaceful to me because i sit there and think , but when i think i get an amazing peaceful vibes like "everything is ok " no matter how bad it gets. when i go to school thats when its the worst because so many people i used to care aobut left me behind , and everytime i see them its not a reminder. but its an understanding of how im never enough , now for the part u guys want the actually story so now i will explain want , passion , pain all in one , how the happy marley is now the sad marley