Make Me Believe

Chapter 1

"I will court you, Beam."

Those words said by Forth kept ringing in Beam's head. The determination in Forth's eyes when he said it was like a scene that kept replaying in his head time after time.

Beam didn't know how to react to Forth for what he said. Knowing Forth this past years made Beam know the Engineering Moon was serious with his words. Forth is a man on his word. He means what he says. Always.

But, it wasn't enough to make Beam believe in him and his words. Those words and his determination couldn't assure Beam to surrender. No. It was not that easy to make Beam Baramee believe in his words, intention, and the most important thing, love.

All this time, Beam was not someone who believe in love. Yes he might play and sleep with many girls. He was called womanizer, cassanova, playboy for reasons. But, that didn't mean he believed in love. That was just his pretence. His game. His way to save his own heart from the pain and his world from crumbling down later.

Beam had enough reasons to not believe in love. He had enough pain and bad memories about what so called love. For years, he was okay playing around without including love on his game. He knew he was being a jerk to those girls who cried over him when he ignored them after their one night stand. But, Beam had to save his heart from the pain because of love. In his world, his heart was his top priority.

And now when finally someone was brave enough to show (what Forth claimed as) love in front of his face, Beam didn't know what to do. He was left dumbfounded. Asking his bestfriends for some advices wasn't his opt too as he was sure Phana and Kit would just urge him to accept Forth. They already got boyfriends for themselve, so of course they would like their bestfriend to have one too. And Forth was the right guy since they knew him. They would absolutely give their blessing if Beam ever announce he and Forth was a thing.

And that was why Beam was alone tonight in their usual bar. He didn't inform Phana and Kit that he would come here to drink. He just wanted some times alone to clear his mind. He need some times to think what he had to do to Forth.

He just sighed. He had clearly tell Forth where he stood. He was not a gay. He was into girls. But, Forth didn't take his word. The taller boy was adamant about taking responsibility and courting Beam. This mentioned about taking responsibility was another reason why Beam couldn't easily accept Forth and his feeling. He couldn't blame himself for thinking that Forth was just mistaken his guilty feeling after their one night stand as love.

"Fuck you, Forth," Beam said quite loud that made people around his table in the corner looking at him. But Beam couldn't care about this kind of thing now. He had bigger problem than those stare from some people in bar.

Too drown in his thought, Beam didn't realize someone was coming to him. He was just aware that someone stood in front of him when that someone talked to him.

"No. I was the one who fucked you, Beam," said that someone who was no other than Forth.

Beam was too shocked seeing the man who occupied his mind this whole day, to answer until he heard what Forth said next. "But, i am okay if you want to fuck me now," added Forth.

"Wha.. what.. how.. how.. why are you here?" asked him stuttered. Beam was standing abruptly seeing Forth in front of him, ready to leave. He had make sure that no one knew he went to the bar. He had check that no Engineering students too in here. So, he was shocked Forth knew where he was.

Beam was, again, too in to his mind that he didn't realize Forth started making move toward him. The taller man held his arms to make him sit back on his seat before taking a sit beside him, trapping Beam between the wall and himself.