I'm just sitting here a little past midnight. I just texted my mom. I have a weird life. I just met my mom 6 months ago. We text every once in a while. Sitting here, I decided Im gonna tell her. Its hard. I'm struggling hard with my sexuality and I have been. I lost my dad July 12th 2017 at 12:04am to a self inflicted gun shot wound to the head. The family I was placed in, I knew forever. The problem was, they are dead set against gays. They knew, but always hoped it was a faze. Its not. I wish it was. I wish I was normal straight. But I'm not. And I struggle with it every day. I try to release my emotions it a fair way but I can't. I don't know why I'm typing this, no one is watching it, but that shows how desperate I am...
