I'm not shy, I'm just Demure

I'm Not Shy

*Ingles*

I woke up every 4am in the morning and that start my daily routine, I go down to the kitchen drink some water walk around the house eating some fruits, I'm a conscious guy or gay don't even know my real gender because I like girls the way they style there cloths and hair but then I like boys the way they look, I'm like this since I was 3yrs old the last time I remembered.

I'm a slim guy with fit body not to much muscle but I can say I'm a sexy slim guy, well that what I notice to my self but I don't know to others since they not see my full body, I have a clean face light pale pink skin with a light blue eyes straight nose and a lips of Angelina Jolie well I love her, no hair growing on my body even my mustache only on my private part but I shaved them every week, I just want to feel so clean, my hair is smooth brunette not to long not to short for a guy, I have clean eye brow that matching my Asian eyes.

I turn on the T. V in the living room and watch my favorite channel, Disney's I really love it because it's less stress and I feel so relax watching cartoons make me feel like I'm a kid again just like the old days, even thou growing up alone is hard but I still love my childhood memories and I don't have brother and sister if I see my neighbors with there big family I kinda the feel jealous, thinking why is my family not like that why can be the same like a one big happy family.

My father past away since I was 14yrs old I only have my grandmother my grandfather and my mom in this house well that still sounds good right? I love them so much even thou I'm 21 and without a Lovelife is enough, that still I have someone to call a family, maybe that's why everyone calling me I'm A shy Guy.

While watching on T. V I was thinking what if I found my Prince just like Cinderella or Snow white, what if someday I will fall in loved to a prince guy? Then I hit my self. Why on earth I was thinking about a prince it should be a princess right? I'm still confused about my gender "could someone help me?" I yelled to my self but deep inside of my heart. My family think I'm gay also the way I walk and move because I'm a little bit feminine, well that's me I should love my self for being who I am I scold my self again and again. Let just say I'm not a Shy guy I'm just Demure because I never explore too much in the world all I do is study go home eat and chat with my family for 21 yrs of my life.

We have a Cat in the house name Muffin his a half Persian and half stray we found him since he was little maybe he got lost from his family, but now he found us and his 9yrs old now but still his strong with a light gray fur and matching my blue eyes color his like my little brother always beside me whenever I'm in living room. I fed him everyday bath him and play with him his a nice cat just like me a nice person with a Demure personality.

Afternoon came I go out from the house watering the garden because my grandmother love this garden also Muffin stay beside me, beautiful flower blooming a pink rose in fact its so beautiful looking at this flower thinking to myself "is there a chance someone will give a flower like this?,"

I hit my head again, stop stop I should be the one who will give a flower right?

"hey man why did you hit your head? You look so cute doing that" someone yelled at me from across the street

I look at him

I tall tan guy with a nice figure body
Wearing white clean shirt with his black tie with red jacket on his arm.

"haha!" I laughed to him like a akward laugh

"I just move here we will be neighbors man" he said to me

"really? Wow!" I reply to him
But that's not a proper answer right? I scratch my head and put my hood on then I look down, why is my heart beat fast? I said to my self

"see yah!" the man yelled and walk away

I look at him walking away "he just talk to me? What is the meaning of it? Why I'm like this I'm good in study but I'm not good in conversation I hate it!" I scold my self.

Then I see muffin looking at me just like telling me YOUR SUCH A LOSER.
And he also walk away from me.

"really?" I shout to my cat

I look at Pink Rose again mesmerizing the beauty of it, maybe someday someone will give me this Pink Rose maybe...