Mistakes From My Escape//G.D

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    Everyone runs into obstacles in life. In most cases the outcome is beautiful. For me the outcome WAS a tall, brown hair, hazel eyed, hot, and I could go on and on about him. His name is Grayson.

   Just thinking about him makes me tremble. I don't know why I can't get over him. I'm sure he has moved on.

   "Ashley!" Called out my boyfriend, Mason. I think he is starting to figure out that I have not gotten over Grayson. I don't love Mason. I love Grayson. It's will be a year since I have seen him in a week. Yes, I count. Every day slower than the last.

  I snapped out of my thoughts.
   "Huh?" I said.
"Focus!" It's the beginning of Senior year. Only thing that would make it better is Grayson and Ethan.

    I ate my lunch in silence. I used to be so outgoing. This year I'm so quiet and shy. It is very hard for someone to get to see the real me. The hyper me. Only with the twins I was the real me. I guess moving to LA then back to the small town in Texas was a big change. My friends from here have moved on. I lost all of my friends. That does not bother me though. Well sometimes it does.

   Over 5 million people hate me. I get harassed on the street sometimes because we broke up.

  Sadly my other best friend from LA named Barbara who is dating Ethan also will not talk to me. She is also among the few who sees the true me. I like me better when I'm with them. They helped me through so much.

  The bell rang and I walked with my head down to my car. Without them with me all I can think about is what happened and what they helped me get through. I drove to my house.

   I cry on a daily basis. There is to much on my mind. To much to deal with. I miss them. I miss how they helped me. I miss how life used to be.
 
   I used to be a YouTuber back when I was with the twins. I had about 3 million subscribers, but I have not posted in a year. Maybe I should give that a second chance. Maybe I could get famous then moved back to LA and talk to the twins. I dropped down to 1 million subscribers when I quit.

   I walk across the hall and to my recording room. It's dusty because I barely used it because I was in California, and then I quit. I sit in the chair where the tripod is still sitting in the same position when I told them I was taking a break. Tears form. I stand up and walk to get a camera from the desk where my computer is.

   I set up everything and sat in the chair. "Hey guys. I know I said I will be taking a break. It made it sound like a month at most, but it has been a year. They have fixed my life when I was with them, and when I left everything went back to how it was. With me being how I am now I don't think I can do YouTube anymore. But... I will try my best. I love y'all. Bye." I said then I stopped the recording.

   Since it was only that short few sentences I did not edit I just posted.

  Sorry If this is short and boring. My chapters will be over 1000 words, but since this chapter needs to be short it is about 600. I promise it will get better? Xx