Inner Demon

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For as long as I can remember I've had a lot of anger inside of me. It mostly started when I was a child. It was able to be somewhat suppressed back then. As I got older I found a way to control it,mainly by venting. I would vent to my mom and or my brother when he and I weren't fighting that is. Things between me and my brother mellowed out as we got older. We hung out and bonded as brothers. But when he got a girlfriend it started to change. I had to do stuff on my own like playing video games by myself and stuff like that. You're probably thinking,why didn't you hang out with your friends? And the answer is because I didn't have any to hang out with around that time. And cause of that dark feelings began to spark inside of me. I became withdrawn,unhappy,and more. I didn't want to go out much. My mom started becoming very worried about me after awhile. But I started to perk up a bit when I got a girlfriend. She was the love of my life as well as my muse. I made created a lot of things that she inspired. We were so happy together. And the darkness in me was tamed,as long as she was around it could not win. I was strong and unbreakable with her around. Unfortunately it didn't last. Eventually the spark in our relationship began fading. I fell off my game,instead of making her feel very special all the time I started making her feel like just a friend which I didn't find out until the day I broke up with her. You're probably wondering why would I do that if I was so happy with her right? Well to answer your question it's because I was going through some things and I thought she would be better off without me. Sadly,I was right but I didn't think I would lose her completely. Since then the darkness in me had grown. I've been doing what I can to keep it in check but thanks to certain people treating me poorly and or just leaving me. I feel like the darkness in my soul has become a monster. A demon in me,if you will. I normally take that kind of anger out on video games but recently my blood boiled to a breaking point. And I created a scenario in my mind from it:

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How many of you feel like you have a monster inside of you? Some ugly beast that comes out when you get angry or least expect it? How many of you may what to destroy something or hurt someone when this happens? Well I don't know about you but this has happened to me a lot because I have anger problems. I've never physically hurt someone before because of it.....at least,not until now. My name is Sam. I'm in a building mad as hell at the moment and also in pain. My anger is killing me and I'm fighting with my allies Jason and Tyler. The monster inside of me finally came out but it had help. I was being tortured by some freak with a scarred messed up face before Jason and Tyler showed up. I was sitting down on a chair. Tied to it actually. I was tired from everything he did to me. He had burned,cut,and beat me. I was really wounded but he didn't care.

The freak,"This could end at any time. All you have to do is give in and let him out."

Sam,"Go to hell scarface." (chuckles)

The freak glared at him then punched my face.

The freak,"Every smart ass comment you give will get you pain in return."

Sam (spits out blood on the floor),"Oh please you call that sissy punch pain? I'm hurting plenty already just having to look at your ugly ass face!"

The freak punched my face again then turned away from me to a table with an electrical cord on it. I got nervous as he grabbed it. He hooked one end into a generator then put on a thick black rubber glove. The cord was electrically charged. He picked up that end and walked back towards me grinning.

The freak,"I'm done screwing around here. You will give me what I want one way or another. The only question I have in my mind is just how much pain will it take to convince you."

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