Imagine Us, Together. (An Emison Story) ON HOLD

chapter 1

Alison's POV

(After Shana got killed by Aria & they're back in Rosewood.)

We've just been to the Rosewood PD and Emily and me were walking to my house. She didn't want me walking alone. That's so sweet of her. I thought. I know I hurt her really bad back when I was still the old Alison DiLaurentis. But still she cared about me. That's what she does; she sees the best in people. She makes me want to be a better person. I love that about her, nobody makes me feel like she does. I know an apology isn't enough to make up for what I did but I still have to at leasts tell her that I'm sorry. So I stopped walking and grabbed both her hands when we were facing each other.

"Em, I really need to say something to you." I said.

"What is it?" she said with a concerned look on her face.

"It's just... I know that I hurt you the most when I was still here and when I left, too. And I really want you to know that I'm sorry for that." I said to her.

"Look Alison, I know that you know that you hurt me the most but some way that makes it even worse. To hear you say that you know that you hurt me really bad is pretty hard." She said with a painful sound in her voice.

"I know that but..." I whispered.

"I LOVED you Alison. I seriously was in love with you and you broke me. Not only by playing with my feelings like that but also by leaving. I just hope you realize that." She said with a tear running down her cheek. I felt so bad right now and I know that I really should feel bad because it's all my fault that she got hurt.

"I know that you were in love with me Em. I just..."I trailed off.

"You just what?" She asked a little mad.

"I was afraid of that okay? I always loved everything about you too. You were always my favorite! I loved you too!" I said on a loud tone with tears all over my face. "And I hate myself for hurting you." I added quickly. She looked at me like she'd seen a ghost and she whispered softly "Goodnight Alison."  And walked away. I probably just ruined our friendship... Shit.

Emily's POV

I walked away after our conversation because I was upset and I didn't want Ali to see me cry even more, although I know she already saw it enough. That was only part of the reason though. I walked away too because I can't stand watching her cry. I guess I've made my point now. I really did love her. I still do, but I don't want her to know that because than she might just play with my feelings again. But what did she mean when she said 'I loved you too'? Did she mean she was in love with me or that she just loved me as a friend? I hope that she was in love with me and still is but whom am I kidding? She's straight. Is she? Yes, of course she is. She can't be gay she already dated so many guys. But I did date Ben before coming out. Stop messing with me mind!  I stopped my thoughts when my mom saw me and came running out of the house to hug me. I almost forgot that she thought I was missing over the past days.  "Emily! Oh my god. Why are you crying? What's wrong?" my mom said.

"I'm fine mom." I whispered to her and pulled back from the hug.

I walked straight up to my room. "Where are you going?" my mother yelled.

"I'm super tired, I'm going to get some sleep." I yelled back and closed my door.

I lay down on my bed and started thinking about everything that's happened. All of my thoughts turn out to be about Alison. Like, when Shana tried to kill us all and Aria killed her instead, as I think about that I get to the part where I stand in front of Ali so that Shana can't shoot her. Or when I checked if Shana was really dead and she was, when Alison started to cry and it hurt me to see her like that so I came back up the stage where she was, wiped her tears away and gave her a tight hug. Damn, I'm in love with this girl. Suddenly I hear something ticking against my window. I stand up and walk to the window where it came from. I see Alison sitting in a tree next to the window. I quickly open the window and let her come in. "I'm so, so, so sorry Emily. I just couldn't sleep when you're mad at me." Alison said shyly.

"It's okay Alison. I just was a bit upset but it's over now. It's just that- well you know." I said and pulled her into a hug. "You know, I would have let you in if you knocked on the door." I said with a grin on my face.

"I thought this would be more dramatic." Alison replied with a grin on her face too. "And... well, thanks for forgiving me Em." She added. Her grin turned into a sweet smile. I love that smile. I missed that smile so much. I came a little closer and whispered "No problem Alison." And I leaned in and kissed her. Once I realized what I was doing I quickly pulled back. "Shit! I'm so sorry Alison." I mentally face palmed myself and walked over to my bed.

"It's, uh, no big deal Em." She whispered. "I should probably go..." she said awkwardly. I nodded in agreement. And she climbed back into the tree and down.

I lay down on my bed and feel like the stupidest person in the world. "I messed up." I said to myself. I really needed to talk to someone about this but I wouldn't hear the end of it if I told anyone so I decided just to go to sleep. Sleep came after an hour of thinking about Alison.