Today was just the worse ugh. I woke up early like at 7 am that was a record i only wake up early if i stay up the whole night but I wake up late if i fall asleep while trying to stay up. I thought today was gonna be great but today was a master of disguise. I kept missing my stuff foe school and had too keep going back in the house too get it which made me late -.- well late for breakfast i was really late cause everybody kept busting in the line -.- so i missed breakfast i was so hungry but at least i got to move up near my crush 😍 he was so cute that day he didn't see me sadly but meh two people got in front of me i wanted too hurt them so bad but I didn't cause I Didn't want to cause a scene. So I stood there plotting their deaths XD after I got through the metal detector like i do every day because of my boots I think tje security guard got tired of me beeping XD and told miss hinkson about me I couldnt hear wut she said but I know she got irritated XD. Then I missed breakfast told mta i was gonna cry tears were forming but meh she didn't care we walked to our testing room cause today was parcc english. ( oh and math parcc is on my b-day -.-) she was moved near MY CRUSH and her crush BUT WHO CARES ABOUT HER CRUSH I WANT TO SWITCH WIT KIYAH WHEN SHE ASKED CAN I SWITCHED BUT I STAYED QUIET I WAS DUMB FOR STAYING QUIET. Then after we finished testing we got snack mya gave hers away and calvin took it 😡if this was a anime I would have the red four curve thing on my head . Then afterwards i found out one of my so called friends told someone I CAN'T STAND about my lil secret my crush that little dumb person gets on my nervous she is just so stupid UGH i waste brain cells talking to her when my crush came too copy off my paper (cause she never pays attention and we had fourth period after parcc which was english and I didn't have to move out of the classroom vause it was the same classroom) this dumb @$$ mother freaking girl had her mouth opened and was smiling MAKING IT ALL HOT I LIKED THIS GUY FOR FOUR MONTHS NOW AND JIT ONCE HAVE HE NOTICED IT I'M NOT LETTING HER RUIN MY CHANCES. If you see two kids murdered or missing I did it. Ugh oh and before class after calvin took the snack i put my feet on the chair and held my knees i then started hitting my head on my knee to give myself a headache so i could go jome butttttt that was a stupid idea others thought wrong and laughed at me. Tears fell from my eyes it was hard trying too close the falset of my tears i then after went on the carpet where mya was and laid beside her with my coat over me and let out tears. I stopped myself after a while but they kept coming. I then asked to go to the bathroom, once i got a yes you ran too the bathroom too cry but there were to many people so i just calmed myself for a little bit and left the bathroom the person i thought I trusted was in the hallway i wanted to tell him everything that happened and i did i then started crying again as he hugged me. I then left back to classroom because i because i held my tears back for so long i lost the feeling of them and like one drops of tears i couldn't feel and one of my classmates saw it i made up a excuse as fast as i could but it was no use she saw through my lie but I gave up on her and talked too mya. I then went- WAIT I MISSED SOMETHING before I went too the bathroom I was near my crush bookbag he asked one of us (me or mya) to give it to him I was so upset I gave it too him and just didn't care keep in mind I REALLY FREAKING LIKE THIS guy but I think he likes mya but that's another story to tell later. Okie ima continue now. When i went too put something in my bookbag she told a classmate well her friend i was crying i quickly sad no I splashed my face wit water and there was something in my eye again she didn't believe me but she stayed quiet. But that was the end of my bad luck today the rest i had good luck and went to the and went to the very top of the bleachers like the very top where you have too climb up there cause they pushed the seats back and uea got to skip second period i hate his class he is su boring and rude- again nother story different day. But yea that was all that happened that is important baii.
4-25-18
