Unspoken Words

You Promised

When we were kids they can hardly separate us. We followed each other like a puppy following its mother.

Let's just say that you and me are childhood bestfriends. We don't need other people's attention as long as I have you and you have me.

We grew up together and the relationship we had never changes. Until one day, you said your family decided to moved out and will migrate to other country.

We were 15 years old back then and the feelings we have to each other grew. And we are aware of that. We still sleep together like we used to do when we were kids. But this time it gets more intimate like we hug and cuddle next to each other. Our family loved the thought of us getting married. So they just let us develop our feelings to each other.

The night before you moved out brought us in each others arms again. We walked in the middle of the night heading to the lake. When we reached our destination, we talk about our feelings and what will happen to us when you leave.

But you said. "I will marry you. I know what we have is true love. I'll be back. Wait for me."

I found security and comfort in your words. So I asked if that's true and you just nod. So I offered you a deal.

"We should promise each other that in the future no matter what life may brings us we will marry each other." And we ended up twisting our pinky finger and do that pinky promise thing.

The day has come that you'll leave. And you kiss me infront of our family. You said you love me and I said I love you too but before you leave I whispered "remember our promise" you smiled and left. Something died in me that day. Something is missing and I know that it's you.

Weeks had passed and we continued talking using our phones. Months.. Years.. had passed you never came back.

We didn't have any communication cause I can't contact you as well as your parents. But I trusted you and I'm holding on to our promise.

I studied hard, found a job that will sustain our financial needs when we get married and mold myself to be the best man for you.

Ten years later, you came back. The happiness I felt is so overwhelming.

You texted me, "Let's meet tonight in the woods where the lake is."

I arrived first and waited for you. We were 25 years old back then. I wanna share everything I did when you leave.

How I gave up my computer games and be serious with my study. How I got a flat 1 in my mathematics subject when I was a college. How I've been chosen as one of the outstanding youth in school and in our community.

How I graduated as a Suma Cum Laude in my university. And how I made you my inspiration in achieving all of those things.

How I didn't look for another girl because I'm inlove with you. How I rejected them everytime I said that 'I'm getting married'.

And then you arrived.

Ten years really changed us a lot. You became prettier. You became a woman. But you seems different. You seems unhappy. You seems nervous. And God knows how I hold back myself not to kiss you at that moment.

You just stand two meters away from me so I walked towards you and hugged you. But you didn't hugged me back. When I pulled away I saw something in your hand. You hand it to me.

A positive pregnancy test and a wedding invitation.

"You're my bestfriend. I want you to be my bestman. Please come to my wedding."

I stood there completely stunned. I don't know what to say because I'm afraid that if I talk or move I will breakdown. So you stepped back and walk away leaving me alone in the middle of the woods.