this night,the most touching elements this night...
the moon, the disco ball moving slowly accompanied by this slow love song.
i am here, standing closely with this guy that had taken away my heart 46 years ago until now.
his heartbeats perfectly fit the behaviour of the surrounding.Slow. Everything is slow. Thousand of things going on in my mind. going back to the reality that i am here, in the arms of this guy among all others.
by the way, his name is Charles. A shy typical church boy, dependently raised by an understanding father, a loving mother and two caring big sisters.
he's not studious nor hardworking, he lived his life waiting for the help of others. he's a drummer, cool huh? but that is one of my biggest problem: wanting every girl understands that he's mine,he's mine... HE'S MINE.
and i am a childish and boyish independent girl,asking God all my life for that one person. the right guy with the right love in the right time.
this' how it started...
December 1973, Lott High School
It is already summer. Well, thank God we have a remaining 4 weeks of vacation. BUT, it has been so boring that i got to spend my whole life on social networking.Probably because i want a good social life. I want to have friends so that when others don't like me, i got some people on my back. I really do not want to spend my junior year here at Lott's but my mother refused to let me transfer to other High.
Finally. Here's Jake, added me to their boy group. Actually it is a band and i'm chosen to be their logo maker.
okay, this could be the start. i was now a member of a group. Not just a group, but a band.
And they start chatting and chatting and chatting. Discordant sounds irritating my ears follow. Okay, i accept that my internet connection is too slow. i am only using the WIFI and there are four or five laptops on. Where the hell can i get a fast connection?
after being annoyed, i got curious about their topic. i opened the chatbox and look who's online. They are all present then Jake, Charles, Dave and Josh put up a mind game. No doubt i'll join it, i super love mind games. i also searched for some harder questions for them.
hahahaha. This is too hard, they'll give up soon.
Unfortunately they all got the right answer. WAIT! they are asking where did i got it because it's too hard.
want me to tell ya?No. Because am GREAT! hahahaha.
my happiness was interrupted by my father's "Fffiiinnnn!! Clean up your messes here. Now!" i forgot to say that i am a messy kind of girl. Too lazy for cleaning stuff.
after cleaning, i go back in front of the laptop to say goodbye. Cleaning my stuff bored me up to the point i have been narcoleptic. So much for the mind games.
I went to bed and pray.
"dear Lord, the most High and powerful, i give to you all my thanks. Entering Lott's this coming month alarms me day by day but you reassured me by giving me these people. At least from now, i got friends. there will be people that will not believe any gossips against me. Thank you Lord for you know what's in my heart. But nothing will be greater if you'll give me this someone who'll care for me, listen to me and encourages me that never my family and friends did.Give me that someone who'll make me realize that life must be lived and will make me appreciate the best out of everything.The type of guy to whom i wanna share my life and make it enjoyable. In whom i will praise you and thank you because of his love for me. The guy who has that kind of love that he'll prefer to put you on our center and we'll grow spiritually together. I love you Lord and my God. Amen"
