I haven't posted in a while so I thought I would post something old not like the rest of my poems this is the inside of my thoughts on the day of December 13th 2017. These were the darkest days I experienced out of my depression.
Drowning...
Can't you see me on the ground
Can't you see that my wings are broken
Therefore I can't fly anymore
Can't you see there is no more light
So I'm Fumbling around on the ground
Can't you see the water drowning me
If you can see it why aren't you trying to save me
Is it because you hate me
Is it because you don't care
Or is it because I'm not worth it anymore
The little faith I do have is being ripped away
I'm like a wilting flower in the winter
Trying to hold on until spring
But it's to far
It's too long
I've been strong for way too long
I wanna be saved
But when I ask
I get called an attention seeking whore
And what are friends for
Besides to smile and tell you it will be okay
But in reality
It's not okay
It never was okay
It will never be okay
All they did was give me false hope
And here I am thinking this hope is real
But then again when I'm like this I don't know what is real
So the waves could be real or they could be fake
The only way to tell is if I drown
If I make it out everything I believe is fake
If I drown there will be no more pain and suffering
Someone please notice the waves
Someone please jump in
Because after while they'll take over for good
The darkness will ascend from behind the light
after that happens what the point in putting up an fight
Darkness is way stronger than I'll ever be
I'm Fragile and Broken
Someone tries to put me back together but I'm missing a piece
And that piece can never be found
For it was taken with my wings
I've told so many people but even they can see
The Darkness has taken over me
-Spencer
