I sat there alone shivering in the cold pouring rain as I take hold of my jumper sleeves and stretch them abit further out covering all the visable cuts and scars on my arms and wrapping the ends in my inner palms. deep in thought I zoned out into my own dark little world inside my head..
Why does everyone see me as the quiet loner? if only they knew who I really was...
At the time I didn't believe in fairy tales or happy endings or love, I didn't care for it, I didn't trust a soul, nothing went right for me in life so I just gave up, I didn't try anymore, I pushed the only ones who cared for me away because I thought I was worthless.. until one day I was standing outside my loud class and I noticed that so was this tall guy standing across from me, he looked down then he looked up and we shared glances for a couple seconds, In those seconds I felt safe and content, but then I put my head back down and let my dark hair fall across my face and looked away, his eyes were so blue that I could get lost in them within a second, I felt as if he was still looking at me so I was embarrassed and I wasn't sure what to do, I tugged at my sleeves so he didn't see anything but he took me by surprise by taking an earphone out of his ear and walked over to me, gently grabbing my arm and pulling up the sleeve...he looked so worried then he leaned towards my ear and whispered
'don't give up, you're beautiful'
I have never seen someone look so scared for me, normally I was just teased for being 'emo' and nobody understood, they just mocked me and laughed, until then...
I felt like crying, I wasn't sure what to do so I mumbled goodbye and I walked away back down the empty corridor passing many classes I just kept walking trying to hide my face so noone would stare but that didn't stop them.
'nobody likes me, im hopeless & everything is wrong with me'
