I've grown content with sleeping alone. When my phone rings I don't answer other people's voices are too loud in my head telling me that I shouldn't have trust you. Yelling at me that I shouldn't have loved you. Trying to convince me to consider you dead. I'm not sure what to do with all their thoughts so I throw them away. Because even though I can make it through the night alone the first thought that comes to my mind when I open my eyes is how I wish I was looking at you. And I can't say that you ever had my trust because I got issues but one thing I do know for sure every time I said I loved you it was true I just wish you could say the same. You are my torturer and my remedy. I found pleasure in the pain you gave me. Thanks to those who were trying to save me but I'm not sure I want to be saved.
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RandomMost of these are just me ranting on and letting out some stuff I've been holding on too. I have a hard time finding the right words to say so hopefully this helps.