seventeen prose | daragon

[ nine ]

《 March 8, 2017》

It's been so long since I last wrote to you, but honey you never left my mind. Slowly- I am picking myself up. Getting up in the morning to start the day with the hope that I could make you smile up there.

Someone told me that you will not be happy seeing me waste my life while you lost yours then it stroked me that all you ever wanted for me is happiness, you decided to suffer alone for my happiness;

and all i did for the few months was to waste that happiness of mine. just like that one song i am desperately proving that- i'm happier with you. In the hope that I could bring you back, I cowardly wasted away my life because I was so scared to face it without you.

I quitted my job last week, somehow the routine type of daily life suffocated me specially that you're not here to comfort me, to tell you the truth I am disgusted with myself, my world revolves around you and I didn't tried enough to make you stay in this lifetime or just by my arms.

Keep smiling as I pick up myself here, look down at this world and feel proud, baby I am slowly making our dream come true. I am planning to build a restaurant and I'm planning to manage it full time.

I miss you more and more each day, can you visit me in my dream; tonight my love? remind me that everything's gonna be alright?