Poems And Memories

Two

Friday, April, 27, 2018
I remembered something in gym class and almost broke to tears in the locker room. . .

This one girl sashayed, and it reminded me of when my mother was in the hospital. . . I could only see her every so often.

My grandma would take me up to see her and when we walked out, after seeing my mom connected to all those wires and her face, my grandma would cheer me up saying, "come one let's sashay out and go get something to eat!" And we did. . . it was horrible remembering that part of my childhood. . .

Especially when I remembered a day before my 5 birthday I had to go bring a cake in for my mom. . . we had to have a little celebration with her, she didn't want to miss it

I remember when I came home with my mom after one of her surveys was healing again, I remember seeing the stitches on her stomach. . .

She started to cough up blood and I watched. . . we took her to the hospital again. . . and I can't rember the rest. . .

All I know is. . . I don't want to have what she had. . .

And I might because most nights when I tell her something about how I can barely eat she crys knowing I might have what she has. . .
And that she doesn't want me to go through it and

I
Might. . .