You're The pain! you're The cure...

Part 5

The morning rays hit the face that was already pale and worn out, it forced welcoming Ishita for the new day that she did not want to start with... She got up with great difficulty with a killing head ache due to the continously cries of previous night... 

She held her head and opened her puffed eyes wiping her dried tears in corner of her eyes... She was just not in a condition to start her day... But the back to back appointments that she had today forced her to get started with the day...  

She just made up her mind that keeping herself engaged will divert her already drained mind... Her mobile beeped yet another time gaining her attention... She knew who it must be... Because her phone was continuously beeping since last night which she preferred to ignore... But now her hands itched to get hold of her mobile... She opened the message preparing herself not to cry again... It read another long essay of apology from him... She had avoided his calls only to spam her with his apology messages... Her eyes brimmed again... Thinking of the way he treated her... She thought he's the one who means everything to her... But for him... She means nothing... It was always his son adi who tops his priority list... She understands that... But she atleast expected a little bit of respect from him, But no... Because he had many other priorities and shagun was one of them... Her heart pricked with that mere thought... She did not want to cry again... She tried to control herself reminding that its just of no use... She wiped her tears that rolled down her cheeks in jiffy... Trying to divert her mind... Just to listen to another beep in her Mobile... Not able to take it anymore... She just threw her mobile which broke into pieces... And cried her heart out hiding her face in her palm...  what has this man done to her... How did he even manage to trap her into this...Why is she not able to think anything other than him... Her mind was drumming wiry questions feeling that her head would burst out...She just wanted to scream her heart out in pain... All she should do was bury the pain inside her heart and cry hugging the pillow w...

She heard the door clicking open... She wiped her eyes immediately and composed herself not wanting to worry her amma... 

As expected her amma came with a cup of coffee, just worried of her daughter who was unusually late... 

Amma : ishu... You haven't got up yet?.. Aren't you going to clinic today... She said handing over the cup of coffee to her... 

Ishita : I have to go amma... She said bluntly... 

Amma : What's happened to you kanna... Are you alright?..  Bukhar toh nahi hai na... She asked caressing her hair... Checking her temperature... 

Ishita : kuch nahi amma... I am alright.. It's... Just that I am quite unwell... Tablet le loongi you don't worry She lied.. 

What else would she tell her amma.. Would she be able to tell that the person whom she has affair with had broken her heart?...  her mother would die out of heart break... Her appa amma thought she was a ideal daughter anyone could have... But what she us doing to them... Cheating the people who loves her for the one who doesn't even care about her...

She consoled her amma and just shrugged off her thoughts too and stood under the shower just let her tears run through her cheeks... This is the only place where no one could find her tears... After a much needed long shower...She got ready for the clinic... 

As she came out... She could hear the usual loud noise from bhalla house... She stood rooted for seconds seeking his voice... But she couldn't... Usually at this timing she would hear his shouting on someone or the other.. But today, Where is he?..  Is he alright?..  Was he drunk last night because she avoided him... Oh no... She wasn't able to ignore this man even after what he has done to her... She loves him... She loves this man who doesn't deserve her love... She saw raman's father coming out... She immediately composed herself before he could see her, she wiped her tears and walked towards elevator...