Big Shoutout to CorieMAC1 for being so sweet! You my darling are our favorite reader!! And here is yet another update because hey we have no lives! Btw you guys the tour has started!!
5 DAYS LATER IN NEW YORK
TORI'S P.O.V
Five days. Five days she hasn't talked to me. The longest Kacie and I had went not talking was two days and it had been pure torture. Five days are hell. I don't know what to do all I have done for these past few days is apologize, but she won't listen. I think the reason she's holding on to this is because it's the first secret I've ever kept from her. The truth is I'm not sorry and I won't be. I don't and won't regret what happened between Peter and I. Everyone but kacie had moved on from the proclamation of my lost virginity, so why couldn't she? I mean I know why, but I feel like there's something else. I regret one thing and I'll regret it for the rest of my life and that's lying to her, but that's all.
Kacie's growing silence isn't the only thing that's been different these past five days. While Kacie was pushing me away, Niall has been pulling me in. The fact that I had kept the loss of my virginity from him and everyone else hadn't bothered him as much as I had worried it would. Niall wasn't happy I hadn't told him, but He simply said it was the past and as long as the relationship between Peter and I stayed in the past We would be fine. Although Niall and I both say our relationship was anything but a relationship We both know it's a complete lie. We had spent more time together in the past five days than anybody else on the tour including our band mates. We continued to sneak away to hidden places and deserted practice rooms to talk and write music. The only difference in our relationship was that he could kiss me anytime he wanted. In the past five days I had been notified on fifteen different occasion that some "Fucking Assholes" were checking me out. I wanted to hate Niall's possessiveness, but I loved it. I love the way he had pushed me into one of the arena bathrooms and kissed me whispering over and over " Fuck the agreement your mine." The only thing that we had stuck to from the agreement was keeping us a secret. We didn't know what we were and we weren't ready to answer those questions. And the only person I wanted to tell wasn't exactly acknowledging my existance.
"Tori? Earth to Tori?" Niall waves his hand in front of my face and I'm pulled out of my thoughts. "Hmm?" I hum back. "Where's your head huh? Up in the clouds?" Niall jokes. I shrug before moving myself into his lap. "Just thinking about Kacie." I fiddle with his collar avoiding his gaze. He slips his hands under my shirt and starts rubbing soft circles on my back to try and sooth me. "She's not gonna ignore you forever." I close my eyes and press my head into the crook of his neck, "I know. That's not what I'm worried about. I'm worried she won't ever trust me again." I mumble. He sighs and shift me to straddle him so I'm looking straight at him. " She still trusts you. Her feelings are just hurt. You just have to give her time." He moves one of his hands to push a stray piece of hair from my face. " I just miss her. And I know we said we'd keep us a secret, but I hate not being able to tell her. I don't want to make the same mistake again." I feel a sudden nervousness build up in my chest waiting for him to respond." Then tell her. When I said we could keep it a secret that wasn't a final thing. I mean we haven't exactly stuck to any other part of the agreement. Go ahead Tell Kacie, I mean you let me tell Harry. I'm not saying we have to tell anyone else.. We'll move at a pace you are comfortable with" I smile at him and lean into to give him a light kiss." You are incredibly sweet, you know that." I say wrapping my arms around his neck. "No actually I didn't, but thank you for notifying me." He quipped. "Alright smarty pants enough talking I haven't gotten a proper kiss all day." I go to make my point by pouting my lips and tugging the bottom of his hair. He laughs a little and cups my cheek and leans forward to kiss me. I smile into our kiss finally feeling relaxed.
