The Foreshadow

 There is a dreamer in all of us. Some of us are more than others.

 Okay, let's be clear. I'm not referring to dreaming of doing something in your life that you've always wanted to do. I'm talking about while you are sleeping.

 Anyway I'm a different kind of dreamer. Everything that I dream happens in some way or another. It all becomes real somehow. I have no idea why this happens, but it does. I believe that while I'm sleeping some powerful spirit or something takes over my body, but I'm probably just going insane.

 Oh by the way, my name is Kallie, if you didn't know, which you probably didn't. Anyway I'm not going to give you a biography about who I am and stuff, because it's not worth your time. Plus my condition is not all fun and games. I didn't call it a power, because I can't control it. I mean with powers you think of saving the day. With my condition it's really hard to be able to save the day.

 Well actually if you think about it, it kind of is a power. It's basically extreme déjà vu. The exact same events happen from the dream in my life, so I guess the closest thing it is to is predicting the future. But it happens in a different way. Not like That's So Raven or anything. I wish I could just have a vision whenever I feel like it, but it doesn't work that way.

 The thing is I dream every night, and somehow I remember everything. Every detail, even the colors of items around me while I was dreaming. I even remember things like how many beams were supporting a bridge. 127,127 beams.

 Then right when I wake up I start the day by writing down the events of my dream, because it always happens in order and it's kind of hard to search through your mind to see what will happen when. So it's basically like planning my day, except I know that everything on the list will be accomplished. I have control of my mind and body the first half hour after waking up, for a reason that I am unaware of.

 It's not like I can actually change anything about my dreams though. It's basically living the same day twice in a row, but not being able to think for yourself or make any decisions, so actually it's kind of difficult to think straight. Actually it might be impossible for me to have my own opinion.

 Everyone, even my parents think I'm just bipolar, but if I had control I wouldn't seem that way. My emotions shift from extreme to extreme, change slightly, or stay the same basically all day. The thing is most of the time my emotions are like one of those frogger rides. You know those rides that go up and down like twenty times? Yeah that's basically my life.

 Anyway my dreams always revolve around myself. I wish that they didn't all the time, but do I really have a choice. I mean I wish I could know what's happening during another person’s whole day tomorrow. That would be more interesting, more what I think the real world is like. Because my dreams are wild and crazy, my life is always wild and crazy. Wild and crazy is normalcy for me, so I really don't know what a normal person's life is like.

 I just would like to know the daily life of a normal teenager. I want to be able to make my own decisions and actually know who I am. Be able to make friends and be able to understand my feelings.

 Relating to the having no friends thing, I sometimes get dreams where I'm friends with a person then it happens in real life. I wonder if they are actually making the choice to come up and talk to me, or am I mentally forcing others people to associate themselves with me? Hopefully I'm not. I don't want anyone else to feel as imprisoned as I do currently.

 By the way this is a dream for me right now. I'm a very good lucid dreamer, but the thing is that I still can't control the occurrences in my dreams. I guess that they just have a mind of their own. In this dream, I'm obviously telling you all about my story and all. I guess this is my true personality or whatever. I mean like how I'm thinking right now.

 Well I guess I should actually get to it. The story that is my difficult life.