Just me

The first day

April 29,2018

Today was not happy or boring, not fun or sad just a normal day, chores and church.

You would think my life would be fun if you knew me at school but no. I just stay home, sleep, eat. 
I don't hang out with people because people don't really want to hang out with me.

That's ok and I don't really care that much but sometimes I feel lonely.

Not because I what love from a guy, not because I know people hate me.

Its because sometimes I don't feel like people care about me, love me, not for kisses and cuddles.

But to like me for me, to know they can trust me, to know they have someone to talk to.

People think I can't be there for them or I don't care for them, but deep inside I do even if I don't show it, even if I don't have the words to say it.

I do

Sometimes I feel like I'm not loved and I'm just someone to laugh at, to make fun of but I'm not.

People what me to be someone else that I can't be

One day I hope to find someone that I can be close to, that can tell when I'm sad and/or mad.

When I'm at school I don't tell people if I feel unhappy, if I'm sad because they don't care.

I just don't show it, you might think I act the same at home and at school but I don't.

Life it's so hard 

Q&a time

What do you guys do in your spare time and how you feel about it?

This was an old one I didn't have time to post it then so here it is now