i want to be painstakingly
in love
i want to love
while the nights turn to days
and the days turn to nights
i want the snow covered ground
and the phone calls from the school
to mean
that i have a chance to meet up with him
i want to drive my car
across the snowy street
look out my window
at the white horizon
cautiously
i want to roll my window down
and feel the frostbite lick my cheeks
as i head down the street
i want to catch the snow flakes
on my tongue
at snow covered stop signs
yet to come
i want to love
like no body is watching
i want to love
from my soul
through the fingertips on my body
i want to love
i want to love
i want to love
but i already do
and nobody is watching
my soul falls to my feet
and looks up to the stars
with lips yet to be kissed
and cheeks that are sun kissed and warm
i'm driving a car through the snow
in my mind
i catch the snowflakes on my tongue
i'm not watching the road signs
my mind catches up with my heart
i hit some ice
the car spins around
and the contents inside
spill out
i'm thrown to the ground
like a boy
in a knife fight
the snow catches in my hair
and the wind licks my toes
and my shoes are in the car
it's cold
and i am lost
i need a bonfire
to warm my body
and my soul
my time is coming
my sentence is served
my time is up
i'm left in hurt
i want to love
i want to love
i want to love
but until then
i guess
goodbye
