Aphmau One-Shots *SLOW UPDATES*

Loving you is suicide.. | Ein x reader

You can play the song, as it is used in the story.. but I'm not sure if you'll be able to keep up.. 😅

Your POV
I laid on the ground.. he had beaten me up again.. why.. why.. just why?!

Everywhere is still
Everything is restless in my heart..
I hate the way this feels..

Then I remembered what he had said.. But.. I'm afraid I'll do it anyway.. if he's not here..

Suddenly I'm scared to be apart..

I miss him too..

The days are dark when you're not around..
The air is getting hard to breathe..
I wish that you would just put me down..
I wish that I could go to sleep..

It hurts..

Loving you is suicide..
I don't know, should I go or should I stay..?

I could feel the blood dripping from my head..

I'm trynna keep myself alive..
Knowing there's a chance it's all too late

I cried for help..

But I heard you say you loved me..
That's the part I can't forget..

Even though I knew nobody would come.. not even him..

And I wish that you come save me..
Cause I'm standing over the edge..
I should let you go..

I wanna leave.. but I love him..

Tell myself the things I need to hear..
But my brain is wired wrong..

He's not the Ein I used to know..

That's why I'm loving you when you're not here..

This Ein manipulates me..

Feels like I drown in your every word..
And every breath that's in between..

He says he loves me.. but does he really..?

Somehow you get me where it really hurts..
It's killing every part of me..

I heard the door open and I tried to get up.. but the pain was keeping me down..

Loving you is suicide..
I don't know, should I go or should I stay..?
I'm trynna keep my self alive..

I felt a sharp sting go through my chest..

Knowing there's a chance it's all too late..

There he was standing.. the man I loved.. who had just stabbed me..

But I heard you say you loved me..
That's the part I can't forget..

I thought about.. him.. had Ein known about him..

And I wish that you come save me..
Cause I'm standing over the edge..

Blood came out of the wound like a red colored waterfall..

Loving you is suicide..
And my world's about to break..
And I...
Had as much as I can take..
And love is a long way down..

I could hear the door creak open.. and a loud bang..

Loving you is suicide..
And it's getting harder every day..
I'm trynna keep myself alive..

(Y/N)?!

Knowing there's a chance it's all too late..

(Y/N)?!

And I'm way past every moment..
But I'm still determined to fight..
And I know it's taking all my strength..
But I'm trynna keep myself alive..

Loving you is suicide..

That's all for now.. hope it wasn't too messy..
Bye! Nya~ -Lizzie