I've thought about suicide. Have you? I hate my life. I go to school and I sleep. But when I don't I draw pictures of how i'm gonna kill myself. I go home and I get the pills out of the cabinet. I sit and lock myself in the bathroom. I'm so scared. What does it feel like to die? I won't suffer anymore. I'l be safe because no one will hurt me. People call me fat, ugly, "you should die" go kill yourself". I'm a goth. I used to like expressing myself in makeup but everyone hated it. I would put black and gold eye shadow and bright lipstick. I loved it so much. They call me gothy, freak etc...
I don't have a great relationship with my parents. They hate me. They hate what I wear. They always say "change you clothes" do this do that. Why do they have to make those decisions for me why can't I? I'm my one person.
I go into my room and I cry. I hear my parents fighting. I go downstairs and I litsen to them. I go down stairs and I say "STOP" I ask what the deal. They say go to your room! I say "no Whats wrong". "They say go away"
"I hate you " My mother screams and runs out of the house and I hear a car screech. I think to myself not it can't be. I run outside and I see a bunch of people crowed around a body under a car will blood. I run and I see my Mom. I scream I go and grab her from under the car. I cry as I sit in the middle of the road.
