It’s almost funny, how, quickly you can lose someone. Someone you love, gone. Forever, never to come back. Like, when they’re gone, all you can think about is them. No one else. When they are gone, your life, revolves around that person. You go around and around in circles over this person. Like a roundabout with no exit. The only way to leave is to make an exit, and, that’s hard. I learnt a valuable lesson everyone should learn. How to make an exit, how to leave a roundabout. I moved forward, but it hurts, it does. Now that you are gone, it hurts every day. I miss you.
“Hey Alice!” I say to her
. “Hey Max!” She replied.
“What do you have next period?” I asked her.
“Social Studies, ew.”
Whenever I spoke to her, she made me happy. Whenever I saw her, she made me happy. Hearing her name made me extra happy. But, I knew, she wasn’t happy. They way she moved, the way she talked, and the way she looked. She wasn’t happy, she was upset, with something. I was afraid to ask.
I didn’t see her for a couple of weeks, at school. I decided to text her,
“Hey Alice, um, I was wondering, If you’re okay? I haven’t seen or heard from you in a while..?” I wrote.
I waited for a reply. An hour later I got reply,
“Yeah I am okay, I have just been really sick, no need to worry Max!” Stupid me, i believed her.
She was at school that very next day. She didn’t look like she had been sick, but she also seemed very out of it that day too. I went and asked her if she was okay, and she said
“Yeah, I am, stop asking!”
That put me out a little. I was a bit upset at that. I didn’t know what to do, all I want is for her to be happy, not to be angry at me, or herself. I was more worried than ever now. I still didn’t know what to do.
On the weekend I got a text saying,
“Max, I’m sorry for that, I was a bit upset that day and didn’t want to talk to anyone, I’m sorry for everything Max, and I want you to know, I love you. I just cant take it anymore.”
I started to tear up, I thought to myself,
“This can’t be happening!?”
I called her over and over and she wouldn’t pick up, I went out to the lounge and yelled to my mom
“Take me to Alice’s house now!”
And all she asked was, “Who is Alice?”
I replied “Never mind that, I need to go to her now!”
So she ran to her car and I got in, I drove to her house. I ran up to her door, and knocked.
No Answer.
I knocked over and over again, until, she came to her door, blood all over her, she had cut her wrists open. She was crying trying to make the blood stop. I yelled out to my mom
“Call the Ambulance!”
She quickly got out the car and called the ambulance. I asked Alice
“Why did you answer the door?!”
“I changed my mind, I love you!” She replied.
I applied pressure to the cuts on her wrists and waited for the ambulance to arrive. The ambulance arrived and took her to Hospital, they said she lost a lot of blood, but she is going to be okay, and if it weren’t for me, she would’ve died. I was happy, and sad.
Alice got out of Hospital and was away from school for a while. Every day I went and saw her, make sure she is okay, I am glad she is okay. I never want to lose her. I love her, and always will.
Lights out Alice.
