I blow off the dust that lays on my shoulders
I'm dragging what's left of my dignity
Pretending seems easy, but its harder than you think
Its almost like lying but within each itch leaves a mark.
I'm done with the present
I can't seem to fight my past
My future is waiting but I'm not ready
Although I want something more, everything that I have, can't seem to fill the void.
I'm missing something, I know I am, funny thing is, I know what it is but its not allowed with this heart of mine
I've accepted death but I'm not looking for it?
I don't know, I'm not sure anymore, all I know is that I'm not afraid.
I was never afraid, I've always been curious on what's on the other side
Is it weird that all I see is fire?
Maybe who knows, no one does.
I don't even know me
I've never tried to recognize the woman in the mirror
The one with those green eyes and diabolical smile
Again, its funny I found myself laughing in tears.
She's the reflection of what I am, the shadow that proves there's light.
My blood boils with each memory
I can see her holding MY SON!
You lucky bitch, you have what was mine
I've lost a part of what you gained.
I need help, I know the people that surrounds me hears my silent screams
But do you dare budge?
It comes and goes
Fighting each day at a time
A never ending war with myself
A little hell in my heart speaks
I'm dying to live, I'm ready!